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Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Long time never post. Im so tired too and soo agitated with my mum cos she is so boossy, naggy and everything. She ask me to do this la do that la. I cabot my tuition today cos im soo very tired and i really cant stand 5 mins at tuition.

Today i didnt stay for literature cos ms lian was not in class at all so i went off. Hee. Aft skool i went home woth junaidi. I slept him accidentally cos he is making me angry and i cant stand it. But its soo difficult to coax him. But good thing he is not angry now. He is very kind. Thank you.

On tuesday i went tuition and i got my test back. I got 8 out of 50 i think but i know i fail. Well i was soo proud of it though. Its better than nothing at all. I got a call from 'R' and he sound very sad. He asked me wether i could meet him but unfortunately i was already at tuition. Dunno why he is sad cos i forgot ask him. Hahaa. He even have the verge to prank me the first time he called that day. Haiyah. Well i should ask him next time why he was sad.

Im going for a movie at town with sdf. I guess its gonna be fun. Cos we are all so excited bout it. I cant wait for tmrw. Meeting my dear after that. Hope i dun forget bout meeting him. Hee.

Cya
Byes
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Ps: Thanks for being there when i need you. You are really my greatest bf ever. Love you. back to top?

Drew this yesterday after mother tongue paper cos i've got an extra fulscap paper on my desk and i cant see it clean


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Hey.. been days since i post.
there are bad news and good news. The bad news is that i have broken off with azmi. The good news is that im with junaidi now and i think that he is funny. He sends me home everyday. What a nice guy to be with.
Broke with azmi cos he told me that he still misses her and he is always asking me bout her. It is as if i am an information counter for him to ask bout her. I feel soo sad cos i really love him. He told me that he was ok with it when i ask for break. I feel hurt but yeah guess he felt hurt too.

Went home with my dear, junaidi. We went lot 1 b4 that with natasha and taufiq. Junaidi was so funny. Hahaa. Yesterday went for zuhairi's b'dae at azfar house. Ate pizza n all. Then when i was about to go gome, i found out that my shoe was stuck at the thing at azfar door. So bad of shafiq and them. Hmph... They called me pontianak some more. Nvm apek u wait...

Went to library with junaidi on wed he says that wants to be a primadona. Haa...
He teach me social studies but unfortunately i am soo lazy to read the textbook so he end up teaching me only for awhile. He told me to teach him maths but then i didnt know how to do any of the question. I was suprosed that i didnt knew anything. OMG! EXAMS ARE NEAR. I'VE TO BE SERIOUS. After that went tuition with diyanah. We had a test but we did not know to do every quest. so we end up talking with each other and mr hussein actually joined our conversation. We didnt even do a single question yet we are happy.

Well guess i have to start cracking my brain for the mid-year exams. I really dun want to fail any subjects. Got date with sdf tmrw at kfc then sabrina's house. Conferm noisy. Got to save money for tmrw. See you tmrw girls.

byes
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Im feeling really sad cos azmi did not msged me since yesterday. I waited for him to msged me the whole day. But he didnt even msged me. I was so sad that i cried the night waiting. Asked hafiz to ask him y he didnt msg. And he replied that his pp8 was low. Well i understand now. But cant he tell me soo. Hmm... He kept me waiting.

Today went home with junaidi. He was funny. Hahaa... He called me bonchet. Soo bad. We were talking about this uncle and auntie in the bus. He was making me laugh through out the way home. Hahaa. What a kind guy.

Yesterday went cycling with my brother. It was fun. We went into this construction site and went down a hill. It was soo fun cos i could feel the wind slapping my face. We were like crazy children cycling in a construction site. Hahaa. Ate my neneks redbean pau yesterday after cycling it was soo nice. I wanted to have more but nenek didnt allow. So bad... Nvm tmrw i buy. Hehee.

Feel so bored at home today. I feel so irritated with my hair. Its getting in my way. Feel like going to barber and cutting it botak. Urgh! im feeling so hot with this hair.
Exams are coming. Got to study.
Cya
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Been feeling restless today... Cos i dunno why is it that i have strange feelings.
Yesterday went to tuition late arnd 8+. And the thing is that i slept im class and i wasnt paying attention. I was soo disappionted with myself. But i was soo damn tired. I cant even open my big eyes wide. Hahaa... Saw him looking at me when i was rushing home from syf tmrw. Felt scared but i feel very stressed as i dun like people looking at me.

Today went to seoul garden cos supandi treat us for our achivement for syf. I was soo famished. Went there with ezairi. He is making me confused with. I felt guilty cos i could not have the same feeling as he do. Im sorry. Really am. Will be having speech day performance tmrw. I've been forgetting my steps lately. Will try to make it ryte tmrw. Not will but must. Hope to do my very best and not to bang on muffidah. Of cos im not bangging on her cos im not coming out on that part. Im gratefull. Hahaa.

thats it
cya
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PS: I dunno why i feel that he doesnt love me. He seems to be not entertaining me. Everday im always the one to msg him first. Today i waited for him to msged me first. I didnt want to be the one starting the conversation again. But unfortunately he didnt msged me at all. When i heard that hafiz saw him jus now. I could take it and msged him. He did not have school today but thn i was thinking why didnt he want to msg me at all. Its not that im accusing him its just that i want to know whether he really love me. Whn i asked him whether he love me and he said yes. But yea i msged him but he only replied once. I feel soo left out. Why cant he be like other boyfriends who always asked their girl what they are doing or anything la. It seems as if he dun need me and im not his girl. Hmm... Wish you will be more interactive with me. I really felt left out and when you asked questions about her i feel that you dun love me. Syg pls tell me do you really love me ryte from the bottom of your heart? And why are you not msging me at all? Why must i always be the one msging you? back to top?

Im soo happy today cos ay last i get to meet my hubby azmi. But unfortunately i only got to meet him for awhile. I was soo sad when he wanted to go home. I felt that i dun want to let him go. Felt like crying. Wish i can b with him longer. His hair was ok lah, he says that he feels funny with his new haircut. Hahaa... ur cute dear dun worry. Azmi tol dme that i am cute and im soo happy. He really made my day. Love you syg.

I was soo unhappy with some pple yesterday. I dunno why they have to be controlling my choices when i've actually sacrificed much for the event. Soo unfair. And now i've got to waste my training again cos of the event. When will it even stop. Its really making me frustrated. Went tuition ystrdy and had lots of fun cos me and diyanah brought foo. Like we are going picnic sey. Then we prank this guy. Diyanah's idea. It was soo funny. Hehee...


Well need to study for test tmrw
Im soo damn tired today wish i can sleep now
Cya
TC.
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PS: Sayang i cant wait to see you again. And can we be meeting together longer? back to top?

I was soo happy last night cos i asked azmi what our relationship as we talk as if we are a couple. Then he said we are together. And i was soo happy. I dun even know when we started to get together cos he didnt ask me anything and i thought we were only friends. Haaa...
I was very happy that i cant sleep and i msged him all night.

But there seems to be a problem cos this guy confessed to me that he treat me as his gf too... but i dindt say anything. Guess i have to xplain to him things then b4 he starts to get hope. I dun wan him to b disappointed so its best that i tell him soon. Hope he will treat me as enemies after that like other boys i've known. I'm soo sorry. Irs true that i really dunno that i was together with azmi in the first place.

Im soo bored at home today. Feel sick at home. Planning to watch 17 again with 2 emerald 'o9. Dunno if they can go. Ill ask them as soon as i can. Miss being with them.

Well thats it
Cya
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Its been long since i post. Haa... Been soo tired.

Yeah! we got gold for the syf. Thanks to all of us for our effort and cikgu azmi. I was so happy to hear the news. Felt like crying with joy at that moment. But then i think i made lots of mistakes during the dance cos i bang on mufiidah during the dance. Im soo sorry dear. But im happy with the results. Its worth having the makeup on. Hahaa.

Yesterday, went to school with ezairi. It was my first time talking to him. He is quite entertaining and i didnt kn ow that he actually like me from last time. Haa... I blushed when he said that. B ut i still dunno what s my feeling towards him. I still take him as a friend ryte noe. Besfriends. Didnt follow him go jammin today cos im sick. And didnt went to sab's house to take pic cos im going out ltr with my parents. IM SO FRUSTRATED THAT I GET SICK ON HOLIDAYS. JUS MY LUCK I GUESS. Im sorry diyanah and ezairi.

Saw the modern dance training for syf. It was nice. Gd luck all of you. All the best.

i think im going for bahas tmrw. Ive got nothing to do at home. OMG. It has only been 1 day but i cant stand being at home. Haaa. im soo bored.

Thats it.
TC.
bYES..
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Im soo happy.

Msged him last night and he said that he syg as me his girl and i was soo touched to read that. I was over the moon then. Thanks, i really appreciate it.
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Jus finished up mufiidah's shoe. It was quite nice but cos i dun like pink i thinks mines better. Hahha. Jk only. Dun angry mufiidah.

Had a tiring day today cos in the morning i had to run my 2.4km. And i didnt ran my best. Its been long since i ran for a long distance. Saw him cos we're having pe at the same time. But yeah i managed to ignore him.Hee.... Syf's up in 2 days and im getting nervous. Hope i wont freak out on the performance. Or else im gonna scold myself.

Had a long chat with diyanah after school about something. Hahaa. We ate at the coffeshop and the usual indian man wasn't there. Or not he'll be smiling at me.

Well thats it.
Cya
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Today school was fun, laughed a lot thanks to qi xiang and diyanah for entertaining my nonsense. Hahaa... Thanks! Sent diyanah to bustop jus now aft school. Soo kind of me. Aww...
Im so tired and frustrated today. Ive been going through lots of things today. Many of my friends said that i should just leave him cause of his actions to me yesterday. I thought so too. And i think its the best for me. But thn some said that it was my fault for giving him hope. Well now i realise that he is not the right one for me and i should just forget about him. What he have done is enough to make me sure that he will never appear in my heart anymore. And im 100% sure that i can forget him. I've been ignoring him today, i didnt even look on his face when he walk passed me. After syf i saw him at concourse and was afraid to go to the bustop alone so i went off with nab. So kind of nab and the rest to accompany me. Thanks! I cant think why he must be everywhere i was. It soo irritating. Wish he would go away from me. PRAY SOO MUCH THAT HE WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE.

Went to take bus with nab, syahiirah and sirin then off to buy mufiidah's shoe today after syf training. I was soo fucked up with the new ez-link. I was soo tired to go to the bustop to take bus home so i took the trouble to go the lrt station at bangkit. When i tapped my card, it stated low as i had only $1 in it and i could not go in. It was so frustrating as i had to walk bck to the bustop which was god damn far and my bag was damn heavy. I was soo exhausted when i reached the bustop and i was just about the sit when the bus came. I was like a dead woman in the bus standing cos i got no energy anymore.

Then when i got home, i started in the shoe and i've done 1/4 of it. That was fast. I was suppose to send my lil' bro for story telling but i was late so i told him that its late and he cried. Hahaaa.. So kesian. But im tired okay. Im not a machine.


Got syf training tmrw and the syf is coming real soon.Im beginning to get nervous.Hope i dont forget my steps or not im gonna kill myself. My head hurts from thinking to much this days. Guess ill just have to wait for my next check-up. I've been hitting my head to get rid of the pain but it only make it worse.

Thats all for today. Got to wake up early tmmrw.
Im always late and i dunno if i will be able to wake up that early.
But im not disappointing myself. I will wake up early or not ill ask my grandma to spray water on my face to wake me up. She did that when i was small. Hahaa! So funny lor that time. Well these childhood memories it's so fun when im small. Hee...

Thats it,
byes
cyA
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Mit with AZMI today...
He was cute la. I was fun. I was nervous otw there then suddenly it rained. As usual i was late...
Hehee... he was so entertaining, fun and caring.
I was soo amazed that he was caring and loving. Took picture with him at bus interchange. He waited for me to take bus before he went home. So sweet..


Urgh!!!!!!
Im SO FUCKIN EMBARRASSED AND GOD DAMN ANGRY!!
Today i met with Farid. Dun understand why i cant contact with any other guys when i've actually broke off with him. He shouted to me and hit his hand on the wall till its swollen. Was it my fault?
HELLO!!! Its my life okay. He have no right to control me.
I jus want him to get away from me now. Im never gonna talk nicely to him. Asshole! I gave him bck his watch and walked away but he gave it to me bck. Whatever! Who cares abt that watch anymre.
HE'S SUCH AN IGNORANT AND EGO GUY! IM SOO STUPID TO HAVE GIVEN HIM A CHANCE TO GET THINGS RYTE WITH ME.
I smsed him rudely to get away from me. And he replied bck rudely to me. Whatever! back to top?

Hey!!!
Its been quite long since i update my blog.
Had lots of fun today, since this month is april. People in school is starting the april fool tricks. Hahaa... Fortunately i didnt fall for any of them.
Had syf training yesterday, was quite tiring. My head hurts in the middle of the training. But yeah, i was strong enough to overcome the pain. Hehee. Anyway, since i had to attend syf training, ihad to skipped my basketball training. When i saw them training i felt soo guilty as they were training toughly and i was only watching. I was so guilty i thought i wanted to stay to see them till they finished but i had tuition. Im sorry guys. ):

Went to tuition yesterday. I thought i was late but khairunnisa was much later. WTH!
I RUSHED LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN AND YOU WERE LATE GIRL! Took lrt service c which heads to ten mile junction, it was soo empty. There's only me and diyanah and we took picture. It was blur cos the train was moving so we took pic till it is perfect. Hahaa. We're like crazy girls. Duh! Who the hell wants to go to ten mile at night. So we went down at bukit panjang and took another train.



Thats it
cya
byes.
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I am so xcited to mit this someone tmrw. Hope you can make it.I dun even know what to wear. Actually im quite nervous. Hahaa. Nvm im brave. Hope its gonna be fun. N remember boy im mitting you tmrw also. Dun be late kae...
And nab im going to ur house to c movie tmrw dun forget kae. back to top?