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Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 1:31 AM

Its been so long since i updated. Okay, i just came home fron malay dance and is now able to update cos ive paid the bill. At last! School was not that tiring nor boring, jus now went to sinaran with nab and sab. Ate chicken chop. Sedap oi! The off to school for malay dance.

Here are the pictures for last saturday.

Saw irfan AGAIN yesterday in the bus and i was wearing the same thing as i was when i saw him last time. Like sway la that shirt but its new. So i take back my words. So sad that i cant see diyanah in her dinner dress but i told her to take lots of pictures so i can see. Hee!

Just now zal blanja me green apple. Thanks eh zal! I was damn thirsty la just now so yeah.

Stress cos test are coming and that means rashes are coming too. SHIT LA!

Brother had fever and was quarantine for 10 days. Such a pity. Planning to go to mac's with diyanah on sunday to do blogshop again cos the recent one is kind of dead la. Hope this one works. Want to go on sdfs date with diyanah and sab and fariza but eventually dunno who to take with me. Sab gave me the idea but then he is so the nono man. But isn't it fun to go dating with 3 of your other friends. Best sei. I can't imagine the fun. But tu la i dunno la havent conferm yet. I really want to see final destination la. Please make it happen ah.

till now.

bye

cya

Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 10:16 PM

Hey, dreadful,dreadful week.
Got scolded and yes i can forget everything. YES!
I dunno what to say to that guy that called me everyday and night without fail. Please dun la, i will reply your mxg when im not busy. Okae.
Went to far east with diyanah yesterday. Bought bag and belts, tripped a lot of times cos the place floor's are not even. Like sial ah malu bodoh. Saw wanie, erlyyana and hanis, WAS SUPRISED too see them cos im soo potek sometimes. Saw diyanah's junior and she was damn pretty. Tall somemore. Me and diyanah was like awwed by it. Went to lots and lots of shops just to find diyanah's dress. It was soo difficult cos we could not decide what to buy. And i was depressed cos i dunno if i should buy a dress but at last didnt cos mum said dont.
Then kfc then took picture with diyanah camera and went to sheng siong. Then home and off to work.
Well thats all la
bye
(:

Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 9:23 PM

Didnt went to school today. At last i can rest at home. Im feeling really tired eventhough ive drank lots of water. Serve me right for drinking rootbeer, green apple, apple tea and mocha latte for the past 2 days. Padan me aku!
Actually im also not in the mood to go to school, cos yesterday my day started out really nice as it was FARIZA'S B'DAE. But then in the middle of the day something happened. I was merely pranked and i was soo damn dumb to believe what the person said. Then i fought with my ex cos i scolded him. But i really wasnt my fault his friend pranked me and i thought that he was in it too cos he replied using your phone. Btol not my fault!!! Then i act like normal going to literature class but after that went to toilet and i was suprised that i broke down cos im usually very strong. Haish... I dunno why is it that he thought that idea was nice a prank. Im mad but really i think its my fault that i believe him la. AHH bodohbodohbodoh!!!!
Nw at library cos my modem havent pay yet. I bought strawberry milkshake. Nice but then im sick and im drinking this. This shows how stupid i am. Hahaa
Just now went to this place it has memories of me and him. I keep crying leh like rain machine. Uncles and aunties look at me sia. -.-

Till here, i need to catch up with my leadership programme at 2+ i guess. I want go clinic no one wants to follow. Jahat ehk.
bye
(:

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 12:55 AM

Today was not a good day for me like always. ):
I went to school to see diyanah take her honors day award then after that did UNSW english. I just tikam-tikam cos my head was spinning and i keep coughing. My temperature was 37.6 in the morning but i didnt went home cos i want to see my diyanah miss her cos yesterday she didnt came. Then after the test i went home cos i really cant stand the achy-ness on my body. I dunno why i feels so painful and i was limping for no reason jus that moving hurts soo much for me.

Lend shafiqah my pe shirt before test and i was very shy to gave it to her cos i used it yesterday and didnt wash it. But she insist so -.-. Sorry kalau busuk ehk.

Addy fetch me from school jus now when i went home half way. He is kind, bought me foo and treat me well. But im so sorry that i cant accept you right now. Im not ready yet to start a new relationship lagipun you're 11 years older than i am. Boys my age find me childish at times what about you if we're together. I dun wan to make other people hurt nor you but i jus have to make a choice. Im sorry. Hope we can still be friends and please dun hate me cos of this.

Then went lot 1 with diyanah to buy *****. Hope she like it. Then off home cos i really cannot stand the pain on my body. Can something cure this faster im suffering man. I dun intend to go to school tomorrow but for Dear Fariza's sake im willing to go eventhough its gonna be hard for me to stay awake in class tomorrow. Sayang fariza!

Till now
(:

Ps: I did what i could your still in my mind. I hate you for leaving me and saying things that convience me once before. But deep down in my heart i really do love you alot. ):

Saturday, July 18, 2009 @ 4:31 AM

Its been really a week for me. There's so much things for me to think of.
Problems come one by one. Im feeling really down each day but nobody knows actually what i really feel.
I dun feel like posting but to see my blog without a post is like im dead. Hee.

that's all
bye

PS: I wan you back i dunno why i cannot forget you. I did what i could but i really cant get you out of me. I wan life bck as much as i want to forget you. Will you just tell me one day that this is all a bad dream that never did happen...

Friday, July 10, 2009 @ 8:39 PM

Im feeling really down today. Dindnt go to school yesterday cos i had rashes. Jun didnt even ask about me at all. Then I broke up with jun yesterday night. He said he doesnt love me anymore. I didnt expect that at all. Soo after a week of torture he told me why. We are bestie's now that we're not together. I dunno if i can forget him as my boyfriend but i should be able to get through this. I really love him man. I cried my whole nite yesterday when he said that now my eyes are swollen. I dunno what i can do to stop thinking bout him. I really wish that yesterday was a dream.

Sorry mufiidah i cant follow you buy your dress. I jus want to be alone at home. I dunno if i can concentrate on my work tonight but ill jus try my best.
Thats all
cya
):

PS: I really love him alot i jus cannot get him off my mind. I didnt want it to happen. You promised me once not to leave. Why now? Why cant you tell me earlier? Why do you need to torture me first?

Saturday, July 4, 2009 @ 1:03 AM

Well its been a long tiring week for me.

Each day when i get bck home i must sleep if not ill be very tired. I dunno why its like that. But i tend to sleep all day long. Hee. Yesterday went to lot 1 with sdf at last i mange to make it. It was funny and we talked alot like we've never meet for 1 year. I miss being with them so much.

On thursday, had sastera and haekal awanbin keep beating me with his earpiece. It was painful sia. Jus you wait. Then had tutorial then hanged out with jun then of home.

Last night i was pranked by qi xiang. WTH! He wasted my 15 cents cos he told me that he was ms andrea lim. NVM, i settle with you at school

I had a great time at school but i feel like i have been treated like slaves to some people at school. Not only that they seem not to appreciate what i've done for them. I feel disappointed but i did not tell them cos i didn't want to hurt their feelings. I dunno why but it seems that people are keeping things from me. Why can't he jus tell the truth to me? I dun understand. I jus cant trust him anymore and keep getting curious about him when he didnt tell the truth. He said that he didnt keep anything from me but this past few days i began discover things that tells me he's hiding something from me. I wish that he would tell me cos i dun want to hear it from someone else one day. Ive been through that feeling before and i know that it jus hurts.

Well thats all

affiliates diyanah sabrina fariza afifah haiekal awwabin muzaqkir azimah khairunnisa mufiidah ahhbean naniee irfan iman ahamd afiq ardiyono zaki darsuni zulfiqar farid miramiramira
Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 1:31 AM Its been so long since i updated. Okay, i just came home fron malay dance and is now able to update cos ive paid the bill. At last! School was not that tiring nor boring, jus now went to sinaran with nab and sab. Ate chicken chop. Sedap oi! The off to school for malay dance. Here are the pictures for last saturday. Saw irfan AGAIN yesterday in the bus and i was wearing the same thing as i was when i saw him last time. Like sway la that shirt but its new. So i take back my words. So sad that i cant see diyanah in her dinner dress but i told her to take lots of pictures so i can see. Hee! Just now zal blanja me green apple. Thanks eh zal! I was damn thirsty la just now so yeah. Stress cos test are coming and that means rashes are coming too. SHIT LA! Brother had fever and was quarantine for 10 days. Such a pity. Planning to go to mac's with diyanah on sunday to do blogshop again cos the recent one is kind of dead la. Hope this one works. Want to go on sdfs date with diyanah and sab and fariza but eventually dunno who to take with me. Sab gave me the idea but then he is so the nono man. But isn't it fun to go dating with 3 of your other friends. Best sei. I can't imagine the fun. But tu la i dunno la havent conferm yet. I really want to see final destination la. Please make it happen ah. Ok till now. bye cya (: back to top?
Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 10:16 PM Hey, dreadful,dreadful week. Got scolded and yes i can forget everything. YES! I dunno what to say to that guy that called me everyday and night without fail. Please dun la, i will reply your mxg when im not busy. Okae. Went to far east with diyanah yesterday. Bought bag and belts, tripped a lot of times cos the place floor's are not even. Like sial ah malu bodoh. Saw wanie, erlyyana and hanis, WAS SUPRISED too see them cos im soo potek sometimes. Saw diyanah's junior and she was damn pretty. Tall somemore. Me and diyanah was like awwed by it. Went to lots and lots of shops just to find diyanah's dress. It was soo difficult cos we could not decide what to buy. And i was depressed cos i dunno if i should buy a dress but at last didnt cos mum said dont. Then kfc then took picture with diyanah camera and went to sheng siong. Then home and off to work. Well thats all la bye (: back to top?
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 9:23 PM Didnt went to school today. At last i can rest at home. Im feeling really tired eventhough ive drank lots of water. Serve me right for drinking rootbeer, green apple, apple tea and mocha latte for the past 2 days. Padan me aku! Actually im also not in the mood to go to school, cos yesterday my day started out really nice as it was FARIZA'S B'DAE. But then in the middle of the day something happened. I was merely pranked and i was soo damn dumb to believe what the person said. Then i fought with my ex cos i scolded him. But i really wasnt my fault his friend pranked me and i thought that he was in it too cos he replied using your phone. Btol not my fault!!! Then i act like normal going to literature class but after that went to toilet and i was suprised that i broke down cos im usually very strong. Haish... I dunno why is it that he thought that idea was nice a prank. Im mad but really i think its my fault that i believe him la. AHH bodohbodohbodoh!!!! Nw at library cos my modem havent pay yet. I bought strawberry milkshake. Nice but then im sick and im drinking this. This shows how stupid i am. Hahaa Just now went to this place it has memories of me and him. I keep crying leh like rain machine. Uncles and aunties look at me sia. -.- Till here, i need to catch up with my leadership programme at 2+ i guess. I want go clinic no one wants to follow. Jahat ehk. bye (: back to top?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 12:55 AM Today was not a good day for me like always. ): I went to school to see diyanah take her honors day award then after that did UNSW english. I just tikam-tikam cos my head was spinning and i keep coughing. My temperature was 37.6 in the morning but i didnt went home cos i want to see my diyanah miss her cos yesterday she didnt came. Then after the test i went home cos i really cant stand the achy-ness on my body. I dunno why i feels so painful and i was limping for no reason jus that moving hurts soo much for me. Lend shafiqah my pe shirt before test and i was very shy to gave it to her cos i used it yesterday and didnt wash it. But she insist so -.-. Sorry kalau busuk ehk. Addy fetch me from school jus now when i went home half way. He is kind, bought me foo and treat me well. But im so sorry that i cant accept you right now. Im not ready yet to start a new relationship lagipun you're 11 years older than i am. Boys my age find me childish at times what about you if we're together. I dun wan to make other people hurt nor you but i jus have to make a choice. Im sorry. Hope we can still be friends and please dun hate me cos of this. Then went lot 1 with diyanah to buy *****. Hope she like it. Then off home cos i really cannot stand the pain on my body. Can something cure this faster im suffering man. I dun intend to go to school tomorrow but for Dear Fariza's sake im willing to go eventhough its gonna be hard for me to stay awake in class tomorrow. Sayang fariza! Till now (: Ps: I did what i could your still in my mind. I hate you for leaving me and saying things that convience me once before. But deep down in my heart i really do love you alot. ): back to top?
Saturday, July 18, 2009 @ 4:31 AM Its been really a week for me. There's so much things for me to think of. Problems come one by one. Im feeling really down each day but nobody knows actually what i really feel. I dun feel like posting but to see my blog without a post is like im dead. Hee. that's all bye PS: I wan you back i dunno why i cannot forget you. I did what i could but i really cant get you out of me. I wan life bck as much as i want to forget you. Will you just tell me one day that this is all a bad dream that never did happen... back to top?
Friday, July 10, 2009 @ 8:39 PM Im feeling really down today. Dindnt go to school yesterday cos i had rashes. Jun didnt even ask about me at all. Then I broke up with jun yesterday night. He said he doesnt love me anymore. I didnt expect that at all. Soo after a week of torture he told me why. We are bestie's now that we're not together. I dunno if i can forget him as my boyfriend but i should be able to get through this. I really love him man. I cried my whole nite yesterday when he said that now my eyes are swollen. I dunno what i can do to stop thinking bout him. I really wish that yesterday was a dream. Sorry mufiidah i cant follow you buy your dress. I jus want to be alone at home. I dunno if i can concentrate on my work tonight but ill jus try my best. Thats all cya ): PS: I really love him alot i jus cannot get him off my mind. I didnt want it to happen. You promised me once not to leave. Why now? Why cant you tell me earlier? Why do you need to torture me first? back to top?
Saturday, July 4, 2009 @ 1:03 AM Well its been a long tiring week for me. Each day when i get bck home i must sleep if not ill be very tired. I dunno why its like that. But i tend to sleep all day long. Hee. Yesterday went to lot 1 with sdf at last i mange to make it. It was funny and we talked alot like we've never meet for 1 year. I miss being with them so much. On thursday, had sastera and haekal awanbin keep beating me with his earpiece. It was painful sia. Jus you wait. Then had tutorial then hanged out with jun then of home. Last night i was pranked by qi xiang. WTH! He wasted my 15 cents cos he told me that he was ms andrea lim. NVM, i settle with you at school I had a great time at school but i feel like i have been treated like slaves to some people at school. Not only that they seem not to appreciate what i've done for them. I feel disappointed but i did not tell them cos i didn't want to hurt their feelings. I dunno why but it seems that people are keeping things from me. Why can't he jus tell the truth to me? I dun understand. I jus cant trust him anymore and keep getting curious about him when he didnt tell the truth. He said that he didnt keep anything from me but this past few days i began discover things that tells me he's hiding something from me. I wish that he would tell me cos i dun want to hear it from someone else one day. Ive been through that feeling before and i know that it jus hurts. Well thats all (: back to top?