Cold Nostalgia

Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 6:43 AM

Im full with kuih. Ate the whole container full of kuih cos ive got nothing to eat. Actually there's asam pedas but im lazy to take and it will make me go to toilet. Haa.
Today, good and bad things happen. Like all other days. The good thing is that i get to go home ant 1.15. WAH! Yesterday went home at 1.15 also. Wah! So good! Miss lian realises that each time we have free period, she didnt have class too. And she actually can conduct class when we are having free period. All this while, now than we all realise. Haiyah! Sat at hall for lit and my legs are numb sitting on the floor. It was super painful. But resisted it cos school was finishing soon. Hahaa. Enjoying the last 2 periods.
The bad things is that, people sometimes dont realise that they are making people feel uncomfortable. I really want the year to end soon and the person to go away but the thing is that im so afraid of my EOY's. Im so unprepared. Yes, ive studied but im just not confident to do it. You know what's the result when you have no confidence right? I really cant take the stress. When the stress is already rising in me, new problems come. I accept people for who they are but i dont understand why he does those things to us. Are we not worth for him? I hope you will stop searching for a new woman. Really, i hope you stop.
Im worried about my studies and i've no choice but to seek help really. I hope you dont mind.
Yesterday, ate pastamania as soon as we were released by mr ang. Cute teacher. Sab and me saw thw waiter who have attitude again. Mother, never smile to customer's. We were facing the escalator while seating and kept commenting on the people who were walking. Hahaa, divert pe. Im freakingly freaked out for my english. I dont want to fail.

Im done for it
):
*bad day
PS: i'm sending you tomorrow, understand? Ask me online then now dont want online. Biase ehk, watch out tmrw. (:

Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 3:00 AM

Currently eating pizza crazy pipes. Actually bought it last week then forget to eat till now. Hee, mu durian pancake also havent eat yet. Hmph.
Mummy went raya AGAIN, without me as per usual. Urgh! I want go raya. ): Today school wasnt that fun. Today is ANGRY day. You know why sabiolz. Hahaa. Was angry with people today, actually everyone. Fariza made this snort that i cant do. Then just now went library, heard zal snort like fariza. I just cant do like that. But keep laughing hearing that snort. Hahaa. After school went to lot 1 library to study. Yah, like real ah study. Studied for awhile only cos zal keeps disturbing la. Sab and shafiq joined shortly after then the disturbing get more irritating till i surrender and closed my book. I played guitar hero and heard my stomach grumbling. Then off to kfc to buy snackers. Wohoo! Heavenly...
Then discussed about saturday with zal and we were bickering alot. Hee. Took 67 home then realiza that my add. maths book at zal's bag. So i called him till i forget to press the bell to get down from bus. Slmat uncle tk marah ehk. Then waited for zal to come and send my book then off home.
Having tuition today but lazy go. Its the last day of tuition sey. Havent been going for the past 4 weeks. Bagus, good example. Want to pass but i really cant get anything in my head eventhough going for tuition. Like shit!
Want buy shoe but someones making me hesitate.
Want strawberry milkshake from macdonalds.
Want pastamania.
Want pizza hut!!!

bye

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 1:40 AM

Im home alone!! Yes!! She trusted me with the key today. Happy man, its unexpected. Fuh!!
Meeting zal-lie later so that it means he sending to work. YAY! Miss u sending me to work.
Ive got nothing to do at home. Just now went bpp to meet the bblogshop owner to collect my things but she last minute cant come. Like WTH! This is like the 3rd time she cancelled the meeting la. I dont think i want to buy that stuff from her anymore. Like she's making her customers a fool. I reached bp already sia just now. WTH! Idiot.
Chill! Anw, SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all muslims. Enjoyed the first two days of raya. Didnt get to go raya today cos im working. Hmph.): I wish that loqman gets the job soon so he cover for me on saturday. I really cant make it, i need someone to change it for me. Argh!
Ive been having diarhea again for the last two days cause, i ate too much spicy food. Hee, didnt heed doctors recommendation to stop eating spicy food. Ehk im soo used to eating spicy food la. .

Got to meet zal.
byes
(:

Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 5:26 AM

Just woke up from sleep, i've got no other things so i decided post. I dont have any latest updates or anything. Im just posting cos i feel like it.Hee. Seriously saying i'm not in the mood now. Had tarian a.k.a talking session with cikgu azmi cos we were tired and many of us did not want to practice. Ended around 4.30. Called amithabachin for almost 6 times before he answered. I dont know what he did that each time i call him he would never answer. He told me that he was at clementi and it would take time to come to bukit batok. So i was pissed, he already confirmed that we are buying shoes today but then end up? Maybe its my fault for telling you that i will end at 5.30 but i didnt say that i will reallyreally end tarian at 5.30. Told you to wait me at school so its easier you dont want. That i understand. I dont mind if you dont want wait for me. But please la, i dont like people who seriously confirmed with me and suddenly decided to change day. You make me put high hopes for nothing. So then i talk to him otp for awhile, scoldingscoldingscolding and he was making jokes. I know you're a funny person but sometimes i need you to be serious too. He likes to hang uo so much and i just cant take it la. I feel like crying and i told him. He did nothing. Eventhough i hung up on him, he just dont react. Why is it that i must tell you to do things for me? I dont want that. I want you to react by yourself. I didnt ask you to be romantic, its just when someone cries, what do you think she needs? I dont want to keep telling you that i feel sad and that im crying. You could hear my shaking voice right? Urgh! I dont want to change you thats why i dont really care about what you're lacking. I dont want you to change i just want you to realise. Thats all i need.
Then after scolding and talking, waited for him in hope that he would come then called him up again and he said he reached home already. I was already freaking pissed off by then. So i played with the rain. Walking from dunearn's bustop to the one before it so that i can cool myself off and broke down on my way. I'm not angry that you went home. I know i asked you too but then if you really love me would you really leave me waiting? That was when i started to regret things. I feel that things are different now. Its our first time fighting like this. I seriously dont want to buy the shoe with you anymore. I prefer doing things myself now that i know its soo difficult for us to buy things together. It alright im already used to it. Ive done things alone in my life. Its not that i dont need you but think for yourself, do i need to tell you that i need you? I want you to react by yourself and not do things cos i ask you too. I went home and was feeling pissed and regretful. Haish.
Slept all the way till 8.30. Wah, shiok! I seriously didnt get enough sleep since last three days, ( i hope you do know bout that) cos ive been working night shift. I feel like buying a baju raya but its late already i think, Hmph nevermine, still got tomorrow. Hee. SHIT! I just realise that i have tuition today. Bagus, tk datang lagi ehk. Aaah, sorry hureen, aku terlupe yang aku ada baca message kau. Sorrysorry.
I saw felicia chin on tv with her vitagen advertisement and i feel like drinking vitagen. Ahhh, its freaking nice if i can get the apple vitagen. Alamak, wanted to go down but its already 9, kedai apek da tutup. ):

byes

);

PS: I dont mind you not being romantic but i want you to see that if you dont realise about things around whats happening to us, its going to be difficult for us to get along like we used to. I want you to know that im not trying to break off its just that i want you to think for a while. Is this really worth what i waited for? I want us to be happy yah, but how when you are serious at times. Iloveyou. But now, i regret for doing things. Its not that i regret having you, i appreciate it alot. I really do thats why i keep wanting you to be with me. Sayang, i dont mind you not comforting me just be here with me will you? Like you promise you would. Im trying to be strong for all this. Will you be here for me lie on you agin?

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 5:44 AM

I feel like eating cupcakes. Woah! Its heavenly nice if i get a whole box of it.

Hey, i freakingly pissed off today. Really damn pissed off la. My pay is not in yet. I've been waiting for weeks for my pay but till now, i still didnt get it. Oi!!!! My money, my hard earned money. I really need it for Hari Raya, ive not bought a single thing and im not free on other days. WTH!! Whats with the people in the office. Urgh! I really need money now cos i was suppose to be buying kuih and baju raya today. Its already late la and we buke begedil only cos there's nothing else at home. Please transfer the money soon. I damn need it.

You, amithabachin, im sorry for not saying goodbye just now, my nenek came out of the lift and i panicked la. Actually she dont really mind. Its just that im afraid she wont like seeing us, thats why i left immediately. You la, ask you go home dont want. Padan muke. Btw, im sorry for being moody, SORRYSORRYSORRY. I will make it up to you, i promise. Remember, 3 days we cannot layan the guy. Zal nk tag apa kt dia tag la, su da malas nk melayan orng yang tk bernyawa.

Hmph, im still out of prepaid and it has been 5 days without prepaid. So dead without messaging. Amithabachin kalau nk amek su dari block su come early so that i know, if not ltr like just now.
Today, i was late for the first time this term. Like ive never have a clean term. And its all for waiting for amithabachin. Then i realise that he actually reached school already. Goodgood. DO AGAIN NEXT TIME. Get report slip today and i was really feeling good cos i passed all except my maths. Haa. Peace and love everybody. Hving diarhea again but i was already ready for it cos i know the cause. Hee. Mummy told to eat medicine to stop diarhea but i refuse cos my stomach will ache cos of the effect. No use...

byes

Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 5:40 AM

Im all alone at home.
Ate tomyam with cilipadi again. Fuh! Heavenly. Soo get ready to get diarhea again. Im chatting with iffah now and talking crap.
This is an exampl of my converstion with her,

Iffah . says:
SUSU !
Sulaiha says:
eh iffah laaa
Iffah . says:
takan og laen kn ?
eh eh , hari tu iffah go IMM then i never see you
hahahaha
Sulaiha says:
sbab iffah kene buat announcement baru ble nmpk
Iffah . says:
buat announcement ?! malu laaaah ,
nanti mic ade problem , kene carik susu utk betulkn
hahahaha
Sulaiha says:
wah! su da retire ehk
Iffah . says:
retireeeeeeeeeee ? noooooooooooooooo , who's gonna run around at stage ?
who's gonna fix the mic , who's gonna help me find susu with an annoucement ?!
Sulaiha says:
your momma
hahaa
iffah call 911 la
Iffah . says:
my mummy kaki sakit dook
somebody call 911 , fire burning on the dance floor
bkn fix mic
hahahaha
Sulaiha says:
sama dia satu package la
Iffah . says:
woaaah , experience nah sulaiha ni ,
pernah call 911 eh ?
Sulaiha says:
pernah la
da kol pastu letak
mcm prank gitu
you should try it
Iffah . says:
Ohh hoooo , ayoooh , nanti org 911 bakar susu baru tau , prank call prank
call . sean kingstion marah nanti
hahhahaa
Sulaiha says:
eh dia suka la
dia kata beautiful girl adala.
Iffah . says:
woaaah ^^
suke lah susu , beautiful girl
Sulaiha says:
eh mesti la
chey
Iffah . says:
jealous iffah ,
hahahaha'
tkpe lah , Iffah suke justin beiber
Sulaiha says:
jadik iffah why not tyr call 911
a lot can happen
chey
Iffah . says:
woaaaah , ok cool .
what can happen
tell me lah
you got lots of experience maah
Sulaiha says:
for example, justin timberlake will love you more and taylor swift will have a love story
with you
amacam
Iffah . says:
woaaaaah , bestnyeeee
will pixie lott make my momma do something too ?
hahahahah !
Sulaiha says:
yeah sure
why not
Iffah . says:
hahahaha ,
i should try it one daaay .
with you beside me ofcourse !
ape ape terjadi , i can blame it on you .
akon will put the blame on you ,
Sulaiha says:
Thats the way
you go girl
Iffah . says:
hahhahaha , ok coolioooo
Sulaiha says:
terima kasih eh
Iffah . says:
huh ? foooooooooooor ?
Sulaiha says:
for saying me cool
chey
Iffah . says:
hahahhaah , susu is alway very coool .
i ffah can hot
susu must be cool
Sulaiha says:
wow!
not bad eh
Iffah . says:
ofcourse , akon ajar iffah mahh
eh bukan ,
katie perry
hot and cold
Sulaiha says:
bertenang iffah
iffah tk ble both hot and cold
iffah kene choose
why not iffah take cold, su take hot
Iffah . says:
hahaha , bertendang lah ni .
iffah nk hot , susu boleh amek cold
hahhhaa
Sulaiha says:
its ok
cold is still nice

Talking crap is freaking entertaining me la. Hee. Im happy today. I dont know why. When i came to school, it feels like a first day of the year. Haahaaa. Weird feelings. Felt tired when i reached home so i really slept like i've never slept before. Im getting my pay tomorrow, so yeah, buying kuih and some more things to fill the house. I should actually be studying now la. Haiyah. Soo not on schedule. Im dead if im not studying. Hmph... Im bored to death. Missing nenek muchmuch cos if she is here she would watch Scary Movie eith me and we will laugh eventhough we have seen it alot of times. HaHAA. Suke ehk nenek ehk.

bye la
i got nothing to write
):

PS: Zal, su tk tau nk buat ape? Im freaking bored. Ehk, zal g ane? Tk blang su. Soo bad ehk. Tknk blanje zal ah. ILY.

Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:24 PM

Im feeling sick and tired of people now that they keep interfering in my life. If i have done something wrong to you then im sorry but i guess you're the one who should be apologising for making me read all your stupid fucking nonsense that you are tagging on my blog. I f you were to ask all the guys whom ive been with, all of them were the ones asking to break off. Not me. There's only one or two whom i ask for breakup. Hello, if you want to spot nonsense please spot things that are logical. If im a playgirl, might as well i ask them for break rather than they asking me right. TOLONG PAKAI OTAK SIKIT AH! I don think you have the rughts to say that diyanah cant interfere. Its you who are interfering. Dont you get it. Knp kau nk kene mali kan diri kau sendiri. Im not affected by your nonsense cos i know im not what you say i am. GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE TELLING PEOPLE OFF! Do you think your that good. If you are that good why dont you put your name clearly and we really settle this off. Why? Takot pe? Afraid that people will make fun of you for spotting things that are not true. I seriously think what you are tagging me are out of the box la. Kalau kau nk ckp pasal aku pun, think for yourself you have also made the mistake of your life la. If you're unhappy, why not ask yourself what you did. And when you already have a girl dont go tagging you your ex-es tagboard justy becos you are unhappy. Dumb! Go and get emotional support from a doctor. Aku rase kau da gile. Becos i have never been a playgirl. Playgirl doesnt mean that when i broke off i cant have a boyfriend. That's not called playgirl, its called moving on. Soo get your definitions right. And if you dont like me, why read and tag my blog. Cant you just go away, loser ass***.

@ 5:52 AM

Heys,
Watching online movie, agent cody banks and posting at the same time. Hee, im alone at home cos i cant go to terawih today. Sorry darling, i cant msg you cos my prepaid da bes. Hope you understand why i didnt tell you that im not coming to terawih. Ate a bit today, only ate kuih that i bought and maggi. Drank kiwi and lime juice just now. Its freaking sour. Yucks!

Lots of people are changing now but some are still being in the same attitude. I like it when people change for good but not those who change but become worse. Hope those people are not far off track.

Went to jurong library with intention to study but then i was distracted when zal makes jokes and we start playing tic-tac-toe. I keep losing la. Shit! I suck at that game. But he gave me chance. Hee. Then we end up not learning, and then decided to go jurong point to look at my working schedule. Then went to look for kuih. I wanted to take this escalator with no seps. Cool man. I like that escalator. Mcm tengah walking over the moon. Then bought food for people at home. Then, intended to send zal home but ended up he send me home. Good boy. Thank you.
Yesterday, didnt get to sleep until after sahur. I cried cos i was freakingly tired but i cant sleep. I hate those times when i cant sleep. I feel like eating lots of sleeping pills so that im able to sleep real well at night. If only i have prepaid i will disturb zal so that he can accompany me. I stayed up and played game on my phone until 450 then sahur. Then i went off to bed. Wah! The feeling of getting to sleep well really is nice.

Well now i want to concentrate to see syurga cinta cos it seems nicer.
byes
(:

PS: Sorry cant text you that im not going terawih. Hmph, thanks for today, i think i was childish at the escalator but whatever it is you must know that i am childish. So bear with my childishnes. Okay! I want to see you tmrw if you can.

Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 1:11 AM

Im not in the mood to post. I went to my blog and saw my tagboard with this dumb person i dont know who. I seriously think that the person is a freaking coward la. I f he's really that vain, why didnt he just put his name. Scared or just afraid that people will embarassed you for criticising people? To this -.- please ah who are you? God is it? If i want to stead with a person, i dont need a comment from you on wether he's handsome or what. Look at your own self first before calling people names, if you are a person with a good heart and attitude, i dont think you will actually embarass yourself by judging his looks and calling me names. You are nobody to rule my life. Secondly, i've never said that my boyfrien is handsome to anyone. I have JUST started my relationship with him and i have never talk to anyone about his physical features. Soo, what the hell are you talking about? Talking crap and even calling me bullshit when i think you are more worse that a hypocrite. Talking of me on my blog, if you hate me then i dont mind cos i dont i even like you cos you have a really damn attitude and i dont think anyone wants you for that kind of self-thinking. Thirdly, if i were to make fun of your gilfriend in future, will you be angry? Im sure you will right. Why are you soo anti to my relationship, it mine realtionship and not yours. Why do you need to care, it doesnt bother you. If you're saying that im judging guys by looks, then see for yourself if my boyfriends are that handsome. Use your small brain for a bit can? If you think that what im saying are all bullshit that you're wrong cos that's what people are thinking of you. Im not being arrogant to you but get this in your head, you are not someone that can rule peopla. You dont have the rights at all. And can you get a life? Dont go around talking about people at their blog. Go and manage your own life. If im a hypocrite, then what are you?

Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 4:48 AM

Today is a wonderful day for me. Went out to study at jurong library with Hasrizal. And i was late, i didnt even know how to go to the entrance of the library cos i've not been there for a long time. Managed to finish my chemistry notes at last. And i think im prepared for my chemistry test. I've never been this prepared before. I study really hard and if i faled again, i dont know what i'm gonna do. After studying, send zal back home. I just wanted to send him home today cos he has been sending me home all this while and i want to repay his deed. I didnt know that you are going to ask me the question today. Sorry, i just cant control my laughter that time. Its not that im not serious, its just that it was unexpected and i wasnt thinking of anything that moment.

Im not confirmed that im going to go for breakfast tomorrow cos im planning to go terawih with mother. Its the last few days to raya and it will be good if i can catch up with what ive missed. Sorry guys if i cant go.

And for my abang sedare, take care at your camp site okay. Be home for raya. I've been staying with him since i was small. He has been a great brother to me and helped me out even to the days that im not wanted by anyone. He was always there for me when i needed someone. All the best abang!

Byes

PS: I hearts you! I'm glad that i dont have to wait anymore and you really convince me that you are what you say to me.

Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 8:32 PM

Haish! At last got to use the laptop after 1 hour of wait. Today started out quiet well. Wake up at 7+ and bath and wanted to iron my school clothes. You know what my father takes half an hour to iron just 1 shirt. He was angry that i walk to and fro at the door waiting for him. Ape je, padahal dia yang lambat. Then went for literature enrichment which was super duper short. I called and msged zal twice but no answer. Bagus la. Kata nk klua tapi tk bngn ape je. After lit. straight away went home. Im planning to sleep till 5 then go to work. Hee. (: BUT, my room is locked and i cant get in. ALAMAK! Why the hell is my room locked? I dont understand man, its my room. HELLO!

But anyway, yesterday, i went home from work at abt 11+ and i realise that my room is in a really big mess. You want see how its like? Like this

Thats what it is like in the wardrobe.

This is suppose to be meant for my grandmother's scarves but it ended up like mine.

This is the study table.

And the condition has been like that for the past 2 months. WOW! I cant believe i can sleep in a room like that la. Thats why i sometimes cant find my things. Soo bear with it people. (:

I saw faizul yesterday while working. This is my second time seeing him when im working. He looks so different now. WOOOW! Got muscle sia. HOT! Soo tall, im freaking jealous la. It takes me years to grow tall but then now i shrink. Stupid! But anyway thanks for praising me. Hee. XOXO.

Didnt meet-up with zal yesterday cos he went to buka at masjid. It was funny that he could answer my call when people are reading al-quran. Ya allah! Next time just dont pick uP. It makes me feel sinful.

PS: If you are afraid why cant you make yourself safer by asking me? Hmph ): I wonder why it feels so long waiting. What if i cant wait any longer?

Friday, September 4, 2009 @ 9:06 PM

3 jade'09

Helloooooo....

Im up at 11+ this morning cos my two brothers were soo freaking noisy and i was awaken by their argument over power rangers. Soo childish 16 year old and fighting about power rangers. Nonsense. I have no plans on going out today cos i really am out of money. Im waiting for 15 september to arrive so that i get my pay and i can go shopping la. But it feels soo long waitng for that day to arrive. Hmph...

I had a really dreadful day yesterday, i really dont understand why some people just cant be nice to us even when its ramadhan period. Doesnt she realise that she is making people hate her more than liking her. I really am at my wits end of disliking that girl. Its not that im being arrogant or something but think about it, she keep coming in between when im having so much fun and she keeps spoiling my fun throughout the day. How can i stand her if she does it every single day? Like she's me around so that she gets what she wants. I think you seriously should get to know what others think about your attitude. You are spoling a lot of friendship bonds and even yours. One day when someone tells you all that you have done to make that person hate you, you will seriously feel that you actually am an egoistic person and thinks only for yourself.

Not only that i too cant understyand why guys cant take it when we reject them. I went to tuition yesterday and he actually was being sarcastic about me and zal. And kept saying that ' gi la dengan matair kau'. I dont think there's a need to talk like that to me la. First of all he isnt mines yet and secondly why do you have to give me opinions about my life. THIS MY LIFE! Tak paham bahasa ke??? How many times must i tell you that its my life and i dont need you yo choose for me my boyfriend or wether i should even have one. Dont you understand peoples feeling or you just dont understand english is it? Go get a life and please don keep bugging in my life. Im not being arrogant but i dont think you like to have someone choose what you do right. Im not doing it to you so please dont do it to me. I felt hurt hearing his sarcastic words, it's as if i have done something wrong towards him.

Last wednesday, i went to work and saw addy. I smiled to him and he was really wanted to go away to smile back cos he look at me and turn his attention to his tunang and then went off. Good thing that he has a tunang now. See, if i were too accept him i dont think he would be getting married soon cos our age are such a big difference. And he didnt talk to me at all. I feel so guilty but i think its for his own good right. Wish that he will be happy! (:

Thats all for now

Byes

cya

Ps: Don't you feel scared that one day someone else gets me instead of you? I just want to know.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 12:24 AM

Im feeling really sick today. I didnt get enough sleep last night. Wake up at 2+ in the morning cos im having diarrhea again. It continued on till the today. I keep going in and out of the toilet and i just cant sleep. At 6+ or so i get to sllep at least. Wake at 2 just now and my stomachs still rumbling.

Yesterday went to bbq with 3 jade and ms andrea lim too. It was fun as the whole lot who came got pushed into the pool and we were making a lot of noise. I was spared cos i didnt bring any extra clothes and i was going out after the bbq. Ate a lot yesterday. Had performance with beaters that morning. It went out well. Went to TWPS but unfortunately most of the teachers went home and there was only iffah, shuhada and ameera. We were having a laugh and took picture with ameera's camera. Miss them alot.

Before bbq i went to brealfast with zal at guilin. I find the place creepy cos at first there were only the two of us. Didnt manage to finish my mee goreng.

This morning, was shocked to see what i saw. I remembered my brother having it and it took a long time for him to get over the pain and get thing out of him. I feel like dying when i saw it and that was why i dont have the mood now.

OH NO!!! I need the toilet again.

Gtg. I hope my stomach will be okay cos im working tonight.

BYE
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 6:43 AM Im full with kuih. Ate the whole container full of kuih cos ive got nothing to eat. Actually there's asam pedas but im lazy to take and it will make me go to toilet. Haa. Today, good and bad things happen. Like all other days. The good thing is that i get to go home ant 1.15. WAH! Yesterday went home at 1.15 also. Wah! So good! Miss lian realises that each time we have free period, she didnt have class too. And she actually can conduct class when we are having free period. All this while, now than we all realise. Haiyah! Sat at hall for lit and my legs are numb sitting on the floor. It was super painful. But resisted it cos school was finishing soon. Hahaa. Enjoying the last 2 periods. The bad things is that, people sometimes dont realise that they are making people feel uncomfortable. I really want the year to end soon and the person to go away but the thing is that im so afraid of my EOY's. Im so unprepared. Yes, ive studied but im just not confident to do it. You know what's the result when you have no confidence right? I really cant take the stress. When the stress is already rising in me, new problems come. I accept people for who they are but i dont understand why he does those things to us. Are we not worth for him? I hope you will stop searching for a new woman. Really, i hope you stop. Im worried about my studies and i've no choice but to seek help really. I hope you dont mind. Yesterday, ate pastamania as soon as we were released by mr ang. Cute teacher. Sab and me saw thw waiter who have attitude again. Mother, never smile to customer's. We were facing the escalator while seating and kept commenting on the people who were walking. Hahaa, divert pe. Im freakingly freaked out for my english. I dont want to fail. Im done for it ): *bad day PS: i'm sending you tomorrow, understand? Ask me online then now dont want online. Biase ehk, watch out tmrw. (: back to top?
Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 3:00 AM Currently eating pizza crazy pipes. Actually bought it last week then forget to eat till now. Hee, mu durian pancake also havent eat yet. Hmph. Mummy went raya AGAIN, without me as per usual. Urgh! I want go raya. ): Today school wasnt that fun. Today is ANGRY day. You know why sabiolz. Hahaa. Was angry with people today, actually everyone. Fariza made this snort that i cant do. Then just now went library, heard zal snort like fariza. I just cant do like that. But keep laughing hearing that snort. Hahaa. After school went to lot 1 library to study. Yah, like real ah study. Studied for awhile only cos zal keeps disturbing la. Sab and shafiq joined shortly after then the disturbing get more irritating till i surrender and closed my book. I played guitar hero and heard my stomach grumbling. Then off to kfc to buy snackers. Wohoo! Heavenly... Then discussed about saturday with zal and we were bickering alot. Hee. Took 67 home then realiza that my add. maths book at zal's bag. So i called him till i forget to press the bell to get down from bus. Slmat uncle tk marah ehk. Then waited for zal to come and send my book then off home. Having tuition today but lazy go. Its the last day of tuition sey. Havent been going for the past 4 weeks. Bagus, good example. Want to pass but i really cant get anything in my head eventhough going for tuition. Like shit! Want buy shoe but someones making me hesitate. Want strawberry milkshake from macdonalds. Want pastamania. Want pizza hut!!! bye back to top?
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 1:40 AM Im home alone!! Yes!! She trusted me with the key today. Happy man, its unexpected. Fuh!! Meeting zal-lie later so that it means he sending to work. YAY! Miss u sending me to work. Ive got nothing to do at home. Just now went bpp to meet the bblogshop owner to collect my things but she last minute cant come. Like WTH! This is like the 3rd time she cancelled the meeting la. I dont think i want to buy that stuff from her anymore. Like she's making her customers a fool. I reached bp already sia just now. WTH! Idiot. Chill! Anw, SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all muslims. Enjoyed the first two days of raya. Didnt get to go raya today cos im working. Hmph.): I wish that loqman gets the job soon so he cover for me on saturday. I really cant make it, i need someone to change it for me. Argh! Ive been having diarhea again for the last two days cause, i ate too much spicy food. Hee, didnt heed doctors recommendation to stop eating spicy food. Ehk im soo used to eating spicy food la. . Got to meet zal. byes (: back to top?
Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 5:26 AM Just woke up from sleep, i've got no other things so i decided post. I dont have any latest updates or anything. Im just posting cos i feel like it.Hee. Seriously saying i'm not in the mood now. Had tarian a.k.a talking session with cikgu azmi cos we were tired and many of us did not want to practice. Ended around 4.30. Called amithabachin for almost 6 times before he answered. I dont know what he did that each time i call him he would never answer. He told me that he was at clementi and it would take time to come to bukit batok. So i was pissed, he already confirmed that we are buying shoes today but then end up? Maybe its my fault for telling you that i will end at 5.30 but i didnt say that i will reallyreally end tarian at 5.30. Told you to wait me at school so its easier you dont want. That i understand. I dont mind if you dont want wait for me. But please la, i dont like people who seriously confirmed with me and suddenly decided to change day. You make me put high hopes for nothing. So then i talk to him otp for awhile, scoldingscoldingscolding and he was making jokes. I know you're a funny person but sometimes i need you to be serious too. He likes to hang uo so much and i just cant take it la. I feel like crying and i told him. He did nothing. Eventhough i hung up on him, he just dont react. Why is it that i must tell you to do things for me? I dont want that. I want you to react by yourself. I didnt ask you to be romantic, its just when someone cries, what do you think she needs? I dont want to keep telling you that i feel sad and that im crying. You could hear my shaking voice right? Urgh! I dont want to change you thats why i dont really care about what you're lacking. I dont want you to change i just want you to realise. Thats all i need. Then after scolding and talking, waited for him in hope that he would come then called him up again and he said he reached home already. I was already freaking pissed off by then. So i played with the rain. Walking from dunearn's bustop to the one before it so that i can cool myself off and broke down on my way. I'm not angry that you went home. I know i asked you too but then if you really love me would you really leave me waiting? That was when i started to regret things. I feel that things are different now. Its our first time fighting like this. I seriously dont want to buy the shoe with you anymore. I prefer doing things myself now that i know its soo difficult for us to buy things together. It alright im already used to it. Ive done things alone in my life. Its not that i dont need you but think for yourself, do i need to tell you that i need you? I want you to react by yourself and not do things cos i ask you too. I went home and was feeling pissed and regretful. Haish. Slept all the way till 8.30. Wah, shiok! I seriously didnt get enough sleep since last three days, ( i hope you do know bout that) cos ive been working night shift. I feel like buying a baju raya but its late already i think, Hmph nevermine, still got tomorrow. Hee. SHIT! I just realise that i have tuition today. Bagus, tk datang lagi ehk. Aaah, sorry hureen, aku terlupe yang aku ada baca message kau. Sorrysorry. I saw felicia chin on tv with her vitagen advertisement and i feel like drinking vitagen. Ahhh, its freaking nice if i can get the apple vitagen. Alamak, wanted to go down but its already 9, kedai apek da tutup. ): byes ); PS: I dont mind you not being romantic but i want you to see that if you dont realise about things around whats happening to us, its going to be difficult for us to get along like we used to. I want you to know that im not trying to break off its just that i want you to think for a while. Is this really worth what i waited for? I want us to be happy yah, but how when you are serious at times. Iloveyou. But now, i regret for doing things. Its not that i regret having you, i appreciate it alot. I really do thats why i keep wanting you to be with me. Sayang, i dont mind you not comforting me just be here with me will you? Like you promise you would. Im trying to be strong for all this. Will you be here for me lie on you agin? back to top?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 5:44 AM I feel like eating cupcakes. Woah! Its heavenly nice if i get a whole box of it. Hey, i freakingly pissed off today. Really damn pissed off la. My pay is not in yet. I've been waiting for weeks for my pay but till now, i still didnt get it. Oi!!!! My money, my hard earned money. I really need it for Hari Raya, ive not bought a single thing and im not free on other days. WTH!! Whats with the people in the office. Urgh! I really need money now cos i was suppose to be buying kuih and baju raya today. Its already late la and we buke begedil only cos there's nothing else at home. Please transfer the money soon. I damn need it. You, amithabachin, im sorry for not saying goodbye just now, my nenek came out of the lift and i panicked la. Actually she dont really mind. Its just that im afraid she wont like seeing us, thats why i left immediately. You la, ask you go home dont want. Padan muke. Btw, im sorry for being moody, SORRYSORRYSORRY. I will make it up to you, i promise. Remember, 3 days we cannot layan the guy. Zal nk tag apa kt dia tag la, su da malas nk melayan orng yang tk bernyawa. Hmph, im still out of prepaid and it has been 5 days without prepaid. So dead without messaging. Amithabachin kalau nk amek su dari block su come early so that i know, if not ltr like just now. Today, i was late for the first time this term. Like ive never have a clean term. And its all for waiting for amithabachin. Then i realise that he actually reached school already. Goodgood. DO AGAIN NEXT TIME. Get report slip today and i was really feeling good cos i passed all except my maths. Haa. Peace and love everybody. Hving diarhea again but i was already ready for it cos i know the cause. Hee. Mummy told to eat medicine to stop diarhea but i refuse cos my stomach will ache cos of the effect. No use... byes ): back to top?
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 5:40 AM Im all alone at home. Ate tomyam with cilipadi again. Fuh! Heavenly. Soo get ready to get diarhea again. Im chatting with iffah now and talking crap. This is an exampl of my converstion with her, Iffah . says: SUSU ! Sulaiha says: eh iffah laaa Iffah . says: takan og laen kn ? eh eh , hari tu iffah go IMM then i never see you hahahaha Sulaiha says: sbab iffah kene buat announcement baru ble nmpk Iffah . says: buat announcement ?! malu laaaah , nanti mic ade problem , kene carik susu utk betulkn hahahaha Sulaiha says: wah! su da retire ehk Iffah . says: retireeeeeeeeeee ? noooooooooooooooo , who's gonna run around at stage ? who's gonna fix the mic , who's gonna help me find susu with an annoucement ?! Sulaiha says: your momma hahaa iffah call 911 la Iffah . says: my mummy kaki sakit dook somebody call 911 , fire burning on the dance floor bkn fix mic hahahaha Sulaiha says: sama dia satu package la Iffah . says: woaaah , experience nah sulaiha ni , pernah call 911 eh ? Sulaiha says: pernah la da kol pastu letak mcm prank gitu you should try it Iffah . says: Ohh hoooo , ayoooh , nanti org 911 bakar susu baru tau , prank call prank call . sean kingstion marah nanti hahhahaa Sulaiha says: eh dia suka la dia kata beautiful girl adala. Iffah . says: woaaah ^^ suke lah susu , beautiful girl Sulaiha says: eh mesti la chey Iffah . says: jealous iffah , hahahaha' tkpe lah , Iffah suke justin beiber Sulaiha says: jadik iffah why not tyr call 911 a lot can happen chey Iffah . says: woaaaah , ok cool . what can happen tell me lah you got lots of experience maah Sulaiha says: for example, justin timberlake will love you more and taylor swift will have a love story with you amacam Iffah . says: woaaaaah , bestnyeeee will pixie lott make my momma do something too ? hahahahah ! Sulaiha says: yeah sure why not Iffah . says: hahahaha , i should try it one daaay . with you beside me ofcourse ! ape ape terjadi , i can blame it on you . akon will put the blame on you , Sulaiha says: Thats the way you go girl Iffah . says: hahhahaha , ok coolioooo Sulaiha says: terima kasih eh Iffah . says: huh ? foooooooooooor ? Sulaiha says: for saying me cool chey Iffah . says: hahahhaah , susu is alway very coool . i ffah can hot susu must be cool Sulaiha says: wow! not bad eh Iffah . says: ofcourse , akon ajar iffah mahh eh bukan , katie perry hot and cold Sulaiha says: bertenang iffah iffah tk ble both hot and cold iffah kene choose why not iffah take cold, su take hot Iffah . says: hahaha , bertendang lah ni . iffah nk hot , susu boleh amek cold hahhhaa Sulaiha says: its ok cold is still nice Talking crap is freaking entertaining me la. Hee. Im happy today. I dont know why. When i came to school, it feels like a first day of the year. Haahaaa. Weird feelings. Felt tired when i reached home so i really slept like i've never slept before. Im getting my pay tomorrow, so yeah, buying kuih and some more things to fill the house. I should actually be studying now la. Haiyah. Soo not on schedule. Im dead if im not studying. Hmph... Im bored to death. Missing nenek muchmuch cos if she is here she would watch Scary Movie eith me and we will laugh eventhough we have seen it alot of times. HaHAA. Suke ehk nenek ehk. bye la i got nothing to write ): PS: Zal, su tk tau nk buat ape? Im freaking bored. Ehk, zal g ane? Tk blang su. Soo bad ehk. Tknk blanje zal ah. ILY. back to top?
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 11:24 PM Im feeling sick and tired of people now that they keep interfering in my life. If i have done something wrong to you then im sorry but i guess you're the one who should be apologising for making me read all your stupid fucking nonsense that you are tagging on my blog. I f you were to ask all the guys whom ive been with, all of them were the ones asking to break off. Not me. There's only one or two whom i ask for breakup. Hello, if you want to spot nonsense please spot things that are logical. If im a playgirl, might as well i ask them for break rather than they asking me right. TOLONG PAKAI OTAK SIKIT AH! I don think you have the rughts to say that diyanah cant interfere. Its you who are interfering. Dont you get it. Knp kau nk kene mali kan diri kau sendiri. Im not affected by your nonsense cos i know im not what you say i am. GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE TELLING PEOPLE OFF! Do you think your that good. If you are that good why dont you put your name clearly and we really settle this off. Why? Takot pe? Afraid that people will make fun of you for spotting things that are not true. I seriously think what you are tagging me are out of the box la. Kalau kau nk ckp pasal aku pun, think for yourself you have also made the mistake of your life la. If you're unhappy, why not ask yourself what you did. And when you already have a girl dont go tagging you your ex-es tagboard justy becos you are unhappy. Dumb! Go and get emotional support from a doctor. Aku rase kau da gile. Becos i have never been a playgirl. Playgirl doesnt mean that when i broke off i cant have a boyfriend. That's not called playgirl, its called moving on. Soo get your definitions right. And if you dont like me, why read and tag my blog. Cant you just go away, loser ass***. back to top?
@ 5:52 AM Heys, Watching online movie, agent cody banks and posting at the same time. Hee, im alone at home cos i cant go to terawih today. Sorry darling, i cant msg you cos my prepaid da bes. Hope you understand why i didnt tell you that im not coming to terawih. Ate a bit today, only ate kuih that i bought and maggi. Drank kiwi and lime juice just now. Its freaking sour. Yucks! Lots of people are changing now but some are still being in the same attitude. I like it when people change for good but not those who change but become worse. Hope those people are not far off track. Went to jurong library with intention to study but then i was distracted when zal makes jokes and we start playing tic-tac-toe. I keep losing la. Shit! I suck at that game. But he gave me chance. Hee. Then we end up not learning, and then decided to go jurong point to look at my working schedule. Then went to look for kuih. I wanted to take this escalator with no seps. Cool man. I like that escalator. Mcm tengah walking over the moon. Then bought food for people at home. Then, intended to send zal home but ended up he send me home. Good boy. Thank you. Yesterday, didnt get to sleep until after sahur. I cried cos i was freakingly tired but i cant sleep. I hate those times when i cant sleep. I feel like eating lots of sleeping pills so that im able to sleep real well at night. If only i have prepaid i will disturb zal so that he can accompany me. I stayed up and played game on my phone until 450 then sahur. Then i went off to bed. Wah! The feeling of getting to sleep well really is nice. Well now i want to concentrate to see syurga cinta cos it seems nicer. byes (: PS: Sorry cant text you that im not going terawih. Hmph, thanks for today, i think i was childish at the escalator but whatever it is you must know that i am childish. So bear with my childishnes. Okay! I want to see you tmrw if you can. back to top?
Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 1:11 AM Im not in the mood to post. I went to my blog and saw my tagboard with this dumb person i dont know who. I seriously think that the person is a freaking coward la. I f he's really that vain, why didnt he just put his name. Scared or just afraid that people will embarassed you for criticising people? To this -.- please ah who are you? God is it? If i want to stead with a person, i dont need a comment from you on wether he's handsome or what. Look at your own self first before calling people names, if you are a person with a good heart and attitude, i dont think you will actually embarass yourself by judging his looks and calling me names. You are nobody to rule my life. Secondly, i've never said that my boyfrien is handsome to anyone. I have JUST started my relationship with him and i have never talk to anyone about his physical features. Soo, what the hell are you talking about? Talking crap and even calling me bullshit when i think you are more worse that a hypocrite. Talking of me on my blog, if you hate me then i dont mind cos i dont i even like you cos you have a really damn attitude and i dont think anyone wants you for that kind of self-thinking. Thirdly, if i were to make fun of your gilfriend in future, will you be angry? Im sure you will right. Why are you soo anti to my relationship, it mine realtionship and not yours. Why do you need to care, it doesnt bother you. If you're saying that im judging guys by looks, then see for yourself if my boyfriends are that handsome. Use your small brain for a bit can? If you think that what im saying are all bullshit that you're wrong cos that's what people are thinking of you. Im not being arrogant to you but get this in your head, you are not someone that can rule peopla. You dont have the rights at all. And can you get a life? Dont go around talking about people at their blog. Go and manage your own life. If im a hypocrite, then what are you? back to top?
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 4:48 AM Today is a wonderful day for me. Went out to study at jurong library with Hasrizal. And i was late, i didnt even know how to go to the entrance of the library cos i've not been there for a long time. Managed to finish my chemistry notes at last. And i think im prepared for my chemistry test. I've never been this prepared before. I study really hard and if i faled again, i dont know what i'm gonna do. After studying, send zal back home. I just wanted to send him home today cos he has been sending me home all this while and i want to repay his deed. I didnt know that you are going to ask me the question today. Sorry, i just cant control my laughter that time. Its not that im not serious, its just that it was unexpected and i wasnt thinking of anything that moment. Im not confirmed that im going to go for breakfast tomorrow cos im planning to go terawih with mother. Its the last few days to raya and it will be good if i can catch up with what ive missed. Sorry guys if i cant go. And for my abang sedare, take care at your camp site okay. Be home for raya. I've been staying with him since i was small. He has been a great brother to me and helped me out even to the days that im not wanted by anyone. He was always there for me when i needed someone. All the best abang! Byes PS: I hearts you! I'm glad that i dont have to wait anymore and you really convince me that you are what you say to me. back to top?
Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 8:32 PM Haish! At last got to use the laptop after 1 hour of wait. Today started out quiet well. Wake up at 7+ and bath and wanted to iron my school clothes. You know what my father takes half an hour to iron just 1 shirt. He was angry that i walk to and fro at the door waiting for him. Ape je, padahal dia yang lambat. Then went for literature enrichment which was super duper short. I called and msged zal twice but no answer. Bagus la. Kata nk klua tapi tk bngn ape je. After lit. straight away went home. Im planning to sleep till 5 then go to work. Hee. (: BUT, my room is locked and i cant get in. ALAMAK! Why the hell is my room locked? I dont understand man, its my room. HELLO! But anyway, yesterday, i went home from work at abt 11+ and i realise that my room is in a really big mess. You want see how its like? Like this Thats what it is like in the wardrobe. This is suppose to be meant for my grandmother's scarves but it ended up like mine. This is the study table. And the condition has been like that for the past 2 months. WOW! I cant believe i can sleep in a room like that la. Thats why i sometimes cant find my things. Soo bear with it people. (: I saw faizul yesterday while working. This is my second time seeing him when im working. He looks so different now. WOOOW! Got muscle sia. HOT! Soo tall, im freaking jealous la. It takes me years to grow tall but then now i shrink. Stupid! But anyway thanks for praising me. Hee. XOXO. Didnt meet-up with zal yesterday cos he went to buka at masjid. It was funny that he could answer my call when people are reading al-quran. Ya allah! Next time just dont pick uP. It makes me feel sinful. PS: If you are afraid why cant you make yourself safer by asking me? Hmph ): I wonder why it feels so long waiting. What if i cant wait any longer? back to top?
Friday, September 4, 2009 @ 9:06 PM 3 jade'09 Helloooooo.... Im up at 11+ this morning cos my two brothers were soo freaking noisy and i was awaken by their argument over power rangers. Soo childish 16 year old and fighting about power rangers. Nonsense. I have no plans on going out today cos i really am out of money. Im waiting for 15 september to arrive so that i get my pay and i can go shopping la. But it feels soo long waitng for that day to arrive. Hmph... I had a really dreadful day yesterday, i really dont understand why some people just cant be nice to us even when its ramadhan period. Doesnt she realise that she is making people hate her more than liking her. I really am at my wits end of disliking that girl. Its not that im being arrogant or something but think about it, she keep coming in between when im having so much fun and she keeps spoiling my fun throughout the day. How can i stand her if she does it every single day? Like she's me around so that she gets what she wants. I think you seriously should get to know what others think about your attitude. You are spoling a lot of friendship bonds and even yours. One day when someone tells you all that you have done to make that person hate you, you will seriously feel that you actually am an egoistic person and thinks only for yourself. Not only that i too cant understyand why guys cant take it when we reject them. I went to tuition yesterday and he actually was being sarcastic about me and zal. And kept saying that ' gi la dengan matair kau'. I dont think there's a need to talk like that to me la. First of all he isnt mines yet and secondly why do you have to give me opinions about my life. THIS MY LIFE! Tak paham bahasa ke??? How many times must i tell you that its my life and i dont need you yo choose for me my boyfriend or wether i should even have one. Dont you understand peoples feeling or you just dont understand english is it? Go get a life and please don keep bugging in my life. Im not being arrogant but i dont think you like to have someone choose what you do right. Im not doing it to you so please dont do it to me. I felt hurt hearing his sarcastic words, it's as if i have done something wrong towards him. Last wednesday, i went to work and saw addy. I smiled to him and he was really wanted to go away to smile back cos he look at me and turn his attention to his tunang and then went off. Good thing that he has a tunang now. See, if i were too accept him i dont think he would be getting married soon cos our age are such a big difference. And he didnt talk to me at all. I feel so guilty but i think its for his own good right. Wish that he will be happy! (: Thats all for now Byes cya (: Ps: Don't you feel scared that one day someone else gets me instead of you? I just want to know. back to top?
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 12:24 AM Im feeling really sick today. I didnt get enough sleep last night. Wake up at 2+ in the morning cos im having diarrhea again. It continued on till the today. I keep going in and out of the toilet and i just cant sleep. At 6+ or so i get to sllep at least. Wake at 2 just now and my stomachs still rumbling. Yesterday went to bbq with 3 jade and ms andrea lim too. It was fun as the whole lot who came got pushed into the pool and we were making a lot of noise. I was spared cos i didnt bring any extra clothes and i was going out after the bbq. Ate a lot yesterday. Had performance with beaters that morning. It went out well. Went to TWPS but unfortunately most of the teachers went home and there was only iffah, shuhada and ameera. We were having a laugh and took picture with ameera's camera. Miss them alot. Before bbq i went to brealfast with zal at guilin. I find the place creepy cos at first there were only the two of us. Didnt manage to finish my mee goreng. This morning, was shocked to see what i saw. I remembered my brother having it and it took a long time for him to get over the pain and get thing out of him. I feel like dying when i saw it and that was why i dont have the mood now. OH NO!!! I need the toilet again. Gtg. I hope my stomach will be okay cos im working tonight. BYE ): back to top?