Cold Nostalgia

Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 9:13 PM

happy new year !

to all those who gave me the wishes thank you

not tht i dint wan to reply but i was asleep already

haahaa sleeping while countdown.. (:

soo yesterday wasnt nice it was my really bad really really bad

soo morning wake up and realise tht mum went for the funeral w/o me

but good thing she went with dad.. like it or not she have to go with him cos there's gonna be

relatives at the funeral and it wont be nice if they dont go together

so i went dance instead of the funeral cos mum say tht im gonna be a nuisance later

wth ! soo bad .. then after dance went home straight cos need to take care of brother

irritating kid .. then mum called me to meet her at jp

soo i rushed cos i had like 3 more hours before work

then did everything and all get my brother ready and off to jp

then ate at banquet .. ate tomyam which was super duper sweet for me its not nice and

only ate the ikan bilis other went to dad's stomach

he dint like the food too

soo the food was wasted it was still full in the bowl

then saw sabrina and the blue nails .. woah !

then mummy wanted to go home badly soo we went off

then bought famous amos .. ate all and left like only 5 piece for the others

hahaaa .. thn off to work

it was the most dreadful day at work cos there's this new guy

not really new he worked there for like umm 2 weeks or maybe longer

but all he knew was to sent ice water and do things only went told too

soo irritating all the staffs there were irritated by hym

this whats make me like slapping hym

me : can give 6 ice water to table 3 (rushing)

irritating guy : huh , table 6, 3 ice water uh ??

me : nono table 3 , 6 ice water

irritating guy : uh table 3 and 6 ice water uh ??

me : haiyah .. table 3 , 6 ice water la !! ( shouting )

irritating guy : ouh okay okay

me : ( sighing )

after 5 mins i came back to the table and saw that there is no ice water at all .. such a waste

of my breathe .. and during closing tyme i told hym to mop the floor

he said " uhhhh " then walk and 15 mins later after i took last order cleared all the cups and

brought in all the jugs he still dint mop and i heard hym saying to a new

partimer girl tht i gave hym too much work

tht tyme i was damn pissed lah

and i took the mop and mop the floor myself

to tht guy ah plss if you dun like to mop i let you know one thing this is part of your job

pls stop complaining cos if you dont wan to do all tht you might as well quit

cos you're pissing me all the tyme and not only me but the others too

and dun tell me tht all the 2 weeks tht you've been working you only know to serve ice water

omg you're 18 and all you know is to do tht pls

dun complain cos all this is part of your work

urghh!! if i see you again i make sure im going to cancel my shift tht day

i cant stand working with you who likes to complain on their duty

others also complain but still they did their job

you ??

pissed off man .. i dun wish to see you again today

Thursday, December 24, 2009 @ 3:16 AM

so now i know why you wanted to break up really badly

its not tht u're migrating but you have someone else

i dunno what i did wrong but i knew from the start tht you werent serious bout us at all ryte

from the very start .. nvm im not angry nor am i trying to be

i know it alredy those lies and everything all tht i can even think of

you really did lie to me really did and tht hurts but i promise tht its

not gonna bother me at all cos

im labelling you as a jerk and hypocrite and it will never change

eventhough how much i still love you

i hope you're happy with your new honey and i never wish to see you again

dont come back in life telling you're sorry or even telling tht

you dint mean it tht way cos you lied and liars are still liars..

zulqarnyne before you get me in your trap again get things ryte in your head

tht no one's gonna like a playboy and no one will if you dint change

pls do change thts the last thing i ask for

i never cried for u now eventhough i know tht i was cheated

cos i dont want to care now

today had great time with my 2emerald'08 mates

celebrated my belated bdae.. they were suprising cos i thought that there was only four of us but

then all 10 was there

great! thanks for the presents, cakes and laughters guys

ate pastamania and it was yumyum

then went to courts and watched the korean music video tht sab really adore's so much

dint know tht zaki likes it too

hahaa then took pictures with macbook

cool! muke paling merepek is sabrina..

hahaa..

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 @ 8:07 PM

birthday on 21st was rather suckish but alright la

soo evening went to sent food for brother..

on my way there my manager called and told me to come to workplace

and soo i did after sending the food

and guess what i get to eat free food there. i ordered anyhting i want and i get my speciality drink which is my mellow mango. ahh soo nice..

then i slacked there till night and followed manager go fing beef bacon

there was no beef and he wanted to take the pork and i was like ??

crazy manager .. then meet faizul at jp to lepak nearby

had fun time with hym walking in the night and finding place to sit

the park there has lots of rats and they can climb on seats

so those who go there at night beware cos they like to run around and scare people like me

and the rats are damn big

soo went home w/o brother cos i took mrt and he took bus

and when i got home brother told me tht heleft the food i brought at work

and he dint even taste it

stupid waste my freaking energy la you

so then at night i wanted to sleep but thn texted zulqarnyne and he gave me this bad news

he said tht he will be migrating to london and tht he wont be back

i was sad like duh and we broke off

bt i was happy tht when i asked did he love me the way he said it he said 'yes'

cool man ! soo to zulqarnyne hasyhm thank you very much for those moments

and i will be studying hard real hard and find you at london okay..

heee go london find you thts my mission
i dun wan to let you go ok but i have to since u ask

then ystrday met a friend and he gave me a teddy bear and 2 boxes of chocolates the teddy bear was really soft and i slept with it last night. really like the teddy bear. thank you! after meeting friend went west coast with daddy and the whole food court was closed see how tired i was then morning had dance then went out and thn he brought me to a place which is far and dissaponting then we ran to catch the 188 bus to alif to eat and we were singing songs over empty stomachs thn off home and yah thts it.. meeting sdf tmorow at cck park.. hehee..

Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 6:05 AM

today went to work and im the only one working

fcuk!

umm so friday went to bugis with sab and bought things and sab bought me blue nail watever

it is called

and it's BLUE oi

thank you soo much sayang kau

we went to bugis junction to find posb and sampled this chewy thing

sab's idea

it was damn the nice

saw rian there

the way to find directions is to ask salesperson

hehee

then ate burger king

then shop and homed

but webt iluma b4 tht. got this promoter who gave a brochure on slimming

hahaa

thn at home did nothing

ysterday went out meet people

cried and talked

and tht person was fun

today im really moody like hell

zul told me thth he is migrating and im damn sad cos if i know i would have like..

ahh, my zul, one after another

after me you

damn it

my bdae tmrw and i get this bad news

i dun feel like celebrating it anway now cos all i want is to see you not to see you go

urgh

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 3:12 AM

making my days worthwhile this days
so catched 'new moon' with this kid

heehee, kid last monday

and really enjoyed my day

tht kid really made me feel soo much more relieved knowing tht

there's always someone to help me when i fall

soo ysterday went counselling then movie marathon

some were like not watching movie but concentrating on food

me too did tht

so watched stan helsing and it was super fun

heehee, fun ke pe

then papadom and this ghost story

disgusting..

muz's brought most of the vcds so blame hym if we catched those unnecessary ones

today went counselling again then went jp shopping

i shopped alone and spent like 200+

omg im a spendthrift i know

but it really makes me happy

soo i do what makes me happy

tmrw will be going malay dance thn bugis i think thn marina to celebrate syeqal bdae

hahaa

soo will be enjoying tmrw with syeqal

im missing you.

been days since i texted you

i know tht ur home today from ur holidays

but i dun wan to disturb u now cos i know tht u're still tired

i really want to see you

but idk how to tell you tht i really miss you

Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 7:49 PM

was feeling down yesterday and i went for work with no mood

but 3 things happen and the last one made my day

1. this guy was really irritating complaining cos there's no more mushroom soup

2. i get $5 tips

3. i saw a boy around 3 yrs old and he winks at me whenever i pass him.

his face is like jackjack in 'the incredibles'

and i get to hold hym when he was about to leave.

but i forgot to ask his name.

aaahh... he soo cute

reached home and watch the p.ramlee show

and then went to sleep around 1

going to movies later with my friend

but not sure yet

cant wait for later cos i really want to see

but he see it already and he says tht its ok if he catch it twice.

my teeth's bleeding again

urgh

i have to go to school someday to change the uniform cos the shirt's big and the skirts small

troublesome

Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 8:54 PM

i wish life could be easy

but when its too easy there seems to not be any fun

i wish i never fall in love

its really difficult to be in love

the sacrifice

whats more if he doesnt appreciates and mocks you when u try b caring..

its not easy to b here waiting all day

actually tht happen to girls only

how i wish i cld be boy

soo today plans are go work and meet someone after tht.

nothing intresting really.

i want to thank kak murni for helping me out at times when i feel like talking

thank you soo much

eventhough ive yet to take action but

i know 1 day i will.

thanks!

and to t****q thanks for being able to listen to me all night long

guess u must be tired from last night

but u are really nice

Saturday, December 5, 2009 @ 11:54 PM

soo HAPPY ONE MONTHSARRY!

to zulqarnyne, eventhough its hard for me to see and tolk to you

eventhough for just one sec, i strive those moments cos i know that i love you.

thanks for being there for me this morning when i couldn't sleep

eventhough its only awhile but it really makes me really happy to be able to be in touch with u

you were really nice..

now i know that i can really trust you and i really

hope tht im not wrong to trust you now..

remember the promise tht both us made, keep it in your heart whenever we miss one another..

@ 4:28 AM

i dun really have the mood to anything nor say anything or even to post anything.. maybe next time.. ):

i really need a chocoloate peppermint..

i really can't believe you would be like this. jus when things get better you change again.. why is it difficult to be like the others do... tomorrow's one month but i dun know if you remember or if even cared..

affiliates diyanah sabrina fariza afifah haiekal awwabin muzaqkir azimah khairunnisa mufiidah ahhbean naniee irfan iman ahamd afiq ardiyono zaki darsuni zulfiqar farid miramiramira
Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 9:13 PM happy new year ! to all those who gave me the wishes thank you not tht i dint wan to reply but i was asleep already haahaa sleeping while countdown.. (: soo yesterday wasnt nice it was my really bad really really bad soo morning wake up and realise tht mum went for the funeral w/o me but good thing she went with dad.. like it or not she have to go with him cos there's gonna be relatives at the funeral and it wont be nice if they dont go together so i went dance instead of the funeral cos mum say tht im gonna be a nuisance later wth ! soo bad .. then after dance went home straight cos need to take care of brother irritating kid .. then mum called me to meet her at jp soo i rushed cos i had like 3 more hours before work then did everything and all get my brother ready and off to jp then ate at banquet .. ate tomyam which was super duper sweet for me its not nice and only ate the ikan bilis other went to dad's stomach he dint like the food too soo the food was wasted it was still full in the bowl then saw sabrina and the blue nails .. woah ! then mummy wanted to go home badly soo we went off then bought famous amos .. ate all and left like only 5 piece for the others hahaaa .. thn off to work it was the most dreadful day at work cos there's this new guy not really new he worked there for like umm 2 weeks or maybe longer but all he knew was to sent ice water and do things only went told too soo irritating all the staffs there were irritated by hym this whats make me like slapping hym me : can give 6 ice water to table 3 (rushing) irritating guy : huh , table 6, 3 ice water uh ?? me : nono table 3 , 6 ice water irritating guy : uh table 3 and 6 ice water uh ?? me : haiyah .. table 3 , 6 ice water la !! ( shouting ) irritating guy : ouh okay okay me : ( sighing ) after 5 mins i came back to the table and saw that there is no ice water at all .. such a waste of my breathe .. and during closing tyme i told hym to mop the floor he said " uhhhh " then walk and 15 mins later after i took last order cleared all the cups and brought in all the jugs he still dint mop and i heard hym saying to a new partimer girl tht i gave hym too much work tht tyme i was damn pissed lah and i took the mop and mop the floor myself to tht guy ah plss if you dun like to mop i let you know one thing this is part of your job pls stop complaining cos if you dont wan to do all tht you might as well quit cos you're pissing me all the tyme and not only me but the others too and dun tell me tht all the 2 weeks tht you've been working you only know to serve ice water omg you're 18 and all you know is to do tht pls dun complain cos all this is part of your work urghh!! if i see you again i make sure im going to cancel my shift tht day i cant stand working with you who likes to complain on their duty others also complain but still they did their job you ?? pissed off man .. i dun wish to see you again today back to top?
Thursday, December 24, 2009 @ 3:16 AM so now i know why you wanted to break up really badly its not tht u're migrating but you have someone else i dunno what i did wrong but i knew from the start tht you werent serious bout us at all ryte from the very start .. nvm im not angry nor am i trying to be i know it alredy those lies and everything all tht i can even think of you really did lie to me really did and tht hurts but i promise tht its not gonna bother me at all cos im labelling you as a jerk and hypocrite and it will never change eventhough how much i still love you i hope you're happy with your new honey and i never wish to see you again dont come back in life telling you're sorry or even telling tht you dint mean it tht way cos you lied and liars are still liars.. zulqarnyne before you get me in your trap again get things ryte in your head tht no one's gonna like a playboy and no one will if you dint change pls do change thts the last thing i ask for i never cried for u now eventhough i know tht i was cheated cos i dont want to care now today had great time with my 2emerald'08 mates celebrated my belated bdae.. they were suprising cos i thought that there was only four of us but then all 10 was there great! thanks for the presents, cakes and laughters guys ate pastamania and it was yumyum then went to courts and watched the korean music video tht sab really adore's so much dint know tht zaki likes it too hahaa then took pictures with macbook cool! muke paling merepek is sabrina.. hahaa.. back to top?
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 @ 8:07 PM birthday on 21st was rather suckish but alright la soo evening went to sent food for brother.. on my way there my manager called and told me to come to workplace and soo i did after sending the food and guess what i get to eat free food there. i ordered anyhting i want and i get my speciality drink which is my mellow mango. ahh soo nice.. then i slacked there till night and followed manager go fing beef bacon there was no beef and he wanted to take the pork and i was like ?? crazy manager .. then meet faizul at jp to lepak nearby had fun time with hym walking in the night and finding place to sit the park there has lots of rats and they can climb on seats so those who go there at night beware cos they like to run around and scare people like me and the rats are damn big soo went home w/o brother cos i took mrt and he took bus and when i got home brother told me tht heleft the food i brought at work and he dint even taste it stupid waste my freaking energy la you so then at night i wanted to sleep but thn texted zulqarnyne and he gave me this bad news he said tht he will be migrating to london and tht he wont be back i was sad like duh and we broke off bt i was happy tht when i asked did he love me the way he said it he said 'yes' cool man ! soo to zulqarnyne hasyhm thank you very much for those moments and i will be studying hard real hard and find you at london okay.. heee go london find you thts my mission i dun wan to let you go ok but i have to since u ask then ystrday met a friend and he gave me a teddy bear and 2 boxes of chocolates the teddy bear was really soft and i slept with it last night. really like the teddy bear. thank you! after meeting friend went west coast with daddy and the whole food court was closed see how tired i was then morning had dance then went out and thn he brought me to a place which is far and dissaponting then we ran to catch the 188 bus to alif to eat and we were singing songs over empty stomachs thn off home and yah thts it.. meeting sdf tmorow at cck park.. hehee.. back to top?
Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 6:05 AM today went to work and im the only one working fcuk! umm so friday went to bugis with sab and bought things and sab bought me blue nail watever it is called and it's BLUE oi thank you soo much sayang kau we went to bugis junction to find posb and sampled this chewy thing sab's idea it was damn the nice saw rian there the way to find directions is to ask salesperson hehee then ate burger king then shop and homed but webt iluma b4 tht. got this promoter who gave a brochure on slimming hahaa thn at home did nothing ysterday went out meet people cried and talked and tht person was fun today im really moody like hell zul told me thth he is migrating and im damn sad cos if i know i would have like.. ahh, my zul, one after another after me you damn it my bdae tmrw and i get this bad news i dun feel like celebrating it anway now cos all i want is to see you not to see you go urgh ): back to top?
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 3:12 AM making my days worthwhile this days so catched 'new moon' with this kid heehee, kid last monday and really enjoyed my day tht kid really made me feel soo much more relieved knowing tht there's always someone to help me when i fall soo ysterday went counselling then movie marathon some were like not watching movie but concentrating on food me too did tht so watched stan helsing and it was super fun heehee, fun ke pe then papadom and this ghost story disgusting.. muz's brought most of the vcds so blame hym if we catched those unnecessary ones today went counselling again then went jp shopping i shopped alone and spent like 200+ omg im a spendthrift i know but it really makes me happy soo i do what makes me happy tmrw will be going malay dance thn bugis i think thn marina to celebrate syeqal bdae hahaa soo will be enjoying tmrw with syeqal im missing you. been days since i texted you i know tht ur home today from ur holidays but i dun wan to disturb u now cos i know tht u're still tired i really want to see you but idk how to tell you tht i really miss you back to top?
Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 7:49 PM was feeling down yesterday and i went for work with no mood but 3 things happen and the last one made my day 1. this guy was really irritating complaining cos there's no more mushroom soup 2. i get $5 tips 3. i saw a boy around 3 yrs old and he winks at me whenever i pass him. his face is like jackjack in 'the incredibles' and i get to hold hym when he was about to leave. but i forgot to ask his name. aaahh... he soo cute reached home and watch the p.ramlee show and then went to sleep around 1 going to movies later with my friend but not sure yet cant wait for later cos i really want to see but he see it already and he says tht its ok if he catch it twice. my teeth's bleeding again urgh i have to go to school someday to change the uniform cos the shirt's big and the skirts small troublesome back to top?
Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 8:54 PM i wish life could be easy but when its too easy there seems to not be any fun i wish i never fall in love its really difficult to be in love the sacrifice whats more if he doesnt appreciates and mocks you when u try b caring.. its not easy to b here waiting all day actually tht happen to girls only how i wish i cld be boy soo today plans are go work and meet someone after tht. nothing intresting really. i want to thank kak murni for helping me out at times when i feel like talking thank you soo much eventhough ive yet to take action but i know 1 day i will. thanks! and to t****q thanks for being able to listen to me all night long guess u must be tired from last night but u are really nice back to top?
Saturday, December 5, 2009 @ 11:54 PM soo HAPPY ONE MONTHSARRY! to zulqarnyne, eventhough its hard for me to see and tolk to you eventhough for just one sec, i strive those moments cos i know that i love you. thanks for being there for me this morning when i couldn't sleep eventhough its only awhile but it really makes me really happy to be able to be in touch with u you were really nice.. now i know that i can really trust you and i really hope tht im not wrong to trust you now.. remember the promise tht both us made, keep it in your heart whenever we miss one another.. back to top?
@ 4:28 AM i dun really have the mood to anything nor say anything or even to post anything.. maybe next time.. ): i really need a chocoloate peppermint.. i really can't believe you would be like this. jus when things get better you change again.. why is it difficult to be like the others do... tomorrow's one month but i dun know if you remember or if even cared.. back to top?