Cold Nostalgia

Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 4:21 AM

today went soo called studying with qixiang , diyanah, nabilah and an♥ . i was in no real mood to study but managed to know the formula for standard deviation and i really like it cos its easy .. at last i get to put my hands on e-maths . im starting to give up on a-maths got i really dont get it no matter how hard u tell me to understand . hahaa , bear with me people .. went to met an at clementi then took bus to chevrons . follow hym buy his things .. intresting place sia its like a shop but same like a store as in the store at home .. all thing labelled and in trays .. then off to popular to find dee's paper . this girl super cerewet sia ..
then went jurong library , start on standard deviation . super easy ! yay! and then gave up halfway not becos i dunno how to do but i'm too lazy .. haahaa .. diyanah's singing were irritating sia just now followed by her voice . funny ke pe .. then went imm to eat but left my bag at library .. ate long john , then bought sushi . yumyum! then let an smoke first before going off .. generous kn ? hahaa went to take my bag and all 4 of us went home ..
im really happy today jus cant put it in words but im really sad to let an go to his camp . want to send hym but i need to come home early .. hmm , nvm im really happy no matter what ..

Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 3:12 AM

im dead tired and head hurts lots ..
painkillers are temporary medications only so what difference does it make ? soo
back from malay dance just know . exciting when it comes to know tht the whole
dance is gonna be finish soon cos i gt to practice more . soo today veryvery early in the morning
got a message from this someone , dun ask who cos i too duno hym . see 6 people texted me ..
all of them i do not know but they know my name . scary sia , did they get my number from the yellow pages ? haahaa i know the culprit who gave my number to this guys already . kill u all then u know . but i give u chance ah .
soo malay lesson watched video of nurin jazlin . the murderer is soo evil , isn't it painful for a person to be abused like tht what if it happens to him ? i really want to say tht the murderer should be severely punished . doesnt he have a heart at all . cruel sia .
thn had english . as per usual dint pay attention . english lessons are too boring it keeps be distracted all the time . then bio and maths. maths was fun today. theres a new word i learn today which is "eunoversity" its a universuty at eunos . haahaa , lame tht was what i heard when venkat pronounced university . funny sia .
then after school eat with sab and we take peoples food too . ahh CORNTOS is my new favourite food . i bought 2 packets sia .yumyum ..
and then went dance and homed . homed phone with someone named hadii one of the 6 people who texted me but the only one who say he seen me before . where? i dunno . maybe i just dint realise . soo tomorrow going town and west coast with sabluvx . we can lesbo tomorrow .

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 4:54 AM

people always come up with things like 'if only' and 'i wish' ..
but then we have the reality which is there is no if only or even wishes . reality can be hurtful but whatever it is bad or good , sad or happy we just have to accept it .. i know whats t like to face a really bad reality and soo does others . there are always someone whose situation is much more worse . this saying keep sme going in life .

had a heart attack headache in class today . wah! like soo damn painful snd i need see doctor urgently tomorrow. this makes me scared cos doctors always tell me there's something wrong with my health blahblahblah .. everytime go clinic u same dialogue '' u cannot be too stress and blahblahs " . pls create a new dialogue doctors . i think i'll put tht in the suggestion box like mr venkat says .. hahaaa
ystrday eat pastamania with mum . treated her but the food ystrday was the awfullest of all . mum ordered what seafood thing and then says its not nice and guess what she swop mines with hers . see, such an evil monster . somemore ask me order pizza . people eat main course then dessert but us eat maincourse for TWO times .. then went macs just to see the happy meal toys . merepek , it was the lame night laa. then went home had diarrhea . hahaa, always sick but i feel like normal . like nohting happen to me .

ps: im missing your presence in me

Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 8:17 PM

catched cinderella story yesterday and it feels really nice when we realise tht
things are becoming better towards the end. and being strong is reaally the best way in making yourself happy. soo after cinderella story i was facebook-ing and then i visited zulqarnyne's profile.. all along i made another mistake.. he dint lie to me , its true tht he has another girl but then he dint lie to me tht he was migrating .. he is really migrating ..
just when i start to think tht im gonna be flying, i fall again .. i was really feeling bad cos i scolded him for coming up with the migrating story .. and guess when he is going ? its this monday
if only i had realise sooner tht it was all true i would have treasured him like my best of the best friends .. im sorry for thinking that was and sorry for wishing for your unhappiness in life
i want to turn back time for all this to be going smooth but then it only turns out to be my wish ..
well we are still friends now and i guess i would be keeping hym as part of my memories ..
im sorry for thinking u were lying ..

soo then chatted till nyte and sleep at 3 in the morning .. someone is being really cute and safe for me ..

Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 3:54 AM

two weeks of school and i feel really tired each day..
it seems that im more tired than i was suppose to be . Each time i went home the only thing i did was sleep for half and hour study for more than and hour or soo and on computer. Thats all, i dint have time to work like last year or even go out to any places at all..
Yesterday my cousin came home from camp and told me to add him at facebook thn he went into his room and chatted with me. WTH! We are in the same house and its like a few steps from each other and we are chatting. Haiyah!
yesterday went pjc and im soo not changing my decisions to going jc cos i guess tht its not happening at all it was really boring me up and i could actually suffer there i think ..
Soo then altered skirt and had apple pie at mac's cc .. then homed .
today im freak tired, i just woke and im here feeling like want to faint ..
this days i've been having nightmare's its really scary .. i dreamt bout i tfor two days straight and i get bumps on me everytime i dream like tht .. soo im sorry if you receive msgs from me late nyte cos im really scared .. this is when i miss my nenek soo much man . if there's her i can sleep with her and it is less scary la ..
met this cute boy ystrday after counselling at cck interchange. he was eating ice cream and then he dropped it .. he was soo angry and ate his grandma's one but only took the biscuits and left the ice cream for the grand mother. and today saw him again in the bus gobbling his candy.. soo adorable.

Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 10:35 PM

HAPPY 3RD YEAR SDFS !!! WOHOO!!
okay so all of you really rocks my years in secondary school
and we will never depart okay.

soo thts all
im in no mood to post at all .
(:

Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 1:38 AM

these few days i notice something wrong with me
i cant feel things, i dun have feelings to what happen
things tht happen make me stress but i dunno y i cant feel anger, sad , happy or whatsoever
why eh ?? is it a spell or something
really im not joking
all that i could feel is tired and stress thts all
my body feels like its a computer its either im stress or tired like hell
all i want is sleep .. >.<

havent been working these days
omg my pay is gonna be really small cos of this
i really cant find a free time to work
i get really tired when i finish school or maybe during school
i keep getting tired and i dunno how im gonna work like tht
guess im gonna quit sooner tht the date that i planned too

one thing i would really like to know is how to make my body react with what happen
i know tht i myself needs to control my body but it is diffirent now
i cant do it .. when im suppose to be angry, all i felt was tired
when im suppose to be hurt , all i want is sleep
what's this ?? oh noo my bod what happen sia
dunno y i understand maths today , really i would have slept but dunno y im awake
but i know im tired
i dunno what im talking now ..
):

p/s: finally eh say hii to me tought u just want to keep quiet ..
i cant feel my body .... ); URGH!!

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Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 4:21 AM today went soo called studying with qixiang , diyanah, nabilah and an♥ . i was in no real mood to study but managed to know the formula for standard deviation and i really like it cos its easy .. at last i get to put my hands on e-maths . im starting to give up on a-maths got i really dont get it no matter how hard u tell me to understand . hahaa , bear with me people .. went to met an at clementi then took bus to chevrons . follow hym buy his things .. intresting place sia its like a shop but same like a store as in the store at home .. all thing labelled and in trays .. then off to popular to find dee's paper . this girl super cerewet sia .. then went jurong library , start on standard deviation . super easy ! yay! and then gave up halfway not becos i dunno how to do but i'm too lazy .. haahaa .. diyanah's singing were irritating sia just now followed by her voice . funny ke pe .. then went imm to eat but left my bag at library .. ate long john , then bought sushi . yumyum! then let an smoke first before going off .. generous kn ? hahaa went to take my bag and all 4 of us went home .. im really happy today jus cant put it in words but im really sad to let an go to his camp . want to send hym but i need to come home early .. hmm , nvm im really happy no matter what .. back to top?
Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 3:12 AM im dead tired and head hurts lots .. painkillers are temporary medications only so what difference does it make ? soo back from malay dance just know . exciting when it comes to know tht the whole dance is gonna be finish soon cos i gt to practice more . soo today veryvery early in the morning got a message from this someone , dun ask who cos i too duno hym . see 6 people texted me .. all of them i do not know but they know my name . scary sia , did they get my number from the yellow pages ? haahaa i know the culprit who gave my number to this guys already . kill u all then u know . but i give u chance ah . soo malay lesson watched video of nurin jazlin . the murderer is soo evil , isn't it painful for a person to be abused like tht what if it happens to him ? i really want to say tht the murderer should be severely punished . doesnt he have a heart at all . cruel sia . thn had english . as per usual dint pay attention . english lessons are too boring it keeps be distracted all the time . then bio and maths. maths was fun today. theres a new word i learn today which is "eunoversity" its a universuty at eunos . haahaa , lame tht was what i heard when venkat pronounced university . funny sia . then after school eat with sab and we take peoples food too . ahh CORNTOS is my new favourite food . i bought 2 packets sia .yumyum .. and then went dance and homed . homed phone with someone named hadii one of the 6 people who texted me but the only one who say he seen me before . where? i dunno . maybe i just dint realise . soo tomorrow going town and west coast with sabluvx . we can lesbo tomorrow . back to top?
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 4:54 AM people always come up with things like 'if only' and 'i wish' .. but then we have the reality which is there is no if only or even wishes . reality can be hurtful but whatever it is bad or good , sad or happy we just have to accept it .. i know whats t like to face a really bad reality and soo does others . there are always someone whose situation is much more worse . this saying keep sme going in life . had a heart attack headache in class today . wah! like soo damn painful snd i need see doctor urgently tomorrow. this makes me scared cos doctors always tell me there's something wrong with my health blahblahblah .. everytime go clinic u same dialogue '' u cannot be too stress and blahblahs " . pls create a new dialogue doctors . i think i'll put tht in the suggestion box like mr venkat says .. hahaaa ystrday eat pastamania with mum . treated her but the food ystrday was the awfullest of all . mum ordered what seafood thing and then says its not nice and guess what she swop mines with hers . see, such an evil monster . somemore ask me order pizza . people eat main course then dessert but us eat maincourse for TWO times .. then went macs just to see the happy meal toys . merepek , it was the lame night laa. then went home had diarrhea . hahaa, always sick but i feel like normal . like nohting happen to me . ps: im missing your presence in me back to top?
Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 8:17 PM catched cinderella story yesterday and it feels really nice when we realise tht things are becoming better towards the end. and being strong is reaally the best way in making yourself happy. soo after cinderella story i was facebook-ing and then i visited zulqarnyne's profile.. all along i made another mistake.. he dint lie to me , its true tht he has another girl but then he dint lie to me tht he was migrating .. he is really migrating .. just when i start to think tht im gonna be flying, i fall again .. i was really feeling bad cos i scolded him for coming up with the migrating story .. and guess when he is going ? its this monday if only i had realise sooner tht it was all true i would have treasured him like my best of the best friends .. im sorry for thinking that was and sorry for wishing for your unhappiness in life i want to turn back time for all this to be going smooth but then it only turns out to be my wish .. well we are still friends now and i guess i would be keeping hym as part of my memories .. im sorry for thinking u were lying .. soo then chatted till nyte and sleep at 3 in the morning .. someone is being really cute and safe for me .. back to top?
Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 3:54 AM two weeks of school and i feel really tired each day.. it seems that im more tired than i was suppose to be . Each time i went home the only thing i did was sleep for half and hour study for more than and hour or soo and on computer. Thats all, i dint have time to work like last year or even go out to any places at all.. Yesterday my cousin came home from camp and told me to add him at facebook thn he went into his room and chatted with me. WTH! We are in the same house and its like a few steps from each other and we are chatting. Haiyah! yesterday went pjc and im soo not changing my decisions to going jc cos i guess tht its not happening at all it was really boring me up and i could actually suffer there i think .. Soo then altered skirt and had apple pie at mac's cc .. then homed . today im freak tired, i just woke and im here feeling like want to faint .. this days i've been having nightmare's its really scary .. i dreamt bout i tfor two days straight and i get bumps on me everytime i dream like tht .. soo im sorry if you receive msgs from me late nyte cos im really scared .. this is when i miss my nenek soo much man . if there's her i can sleep with her and it is less scary la .. met this cute boy ystrday after counselling at cck interchange. he was eating ice cream and then he dropped it .. he was soo angry and ate his grandma's one but only took the biscuits and left the ice cream for the grand mother. and today saw him again in the bus gobbling his candy.. soo adorable. back to top?
Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 10:35 PM HAPPY 3RD YEAR SDFS !!! WOHOO!! okay so all of you really rocks my years in secondary school and we will never depart okay. soo thts all im in no mood to post at all . (: back to top?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 1:38 AM these few days i notice something wrong with me i cant feel things, i dun have feelings to what happen things tht happen make me stress but i dunno y i cant feel anger, sad , happy or whatsoever why eh ?? is it a spell or something really im not joking all that i could feel is tired and stress thts all my body feels like its a computer its either im stress or tired like hell all i want is sleep .. >.< havent been working these days omg my pay is gonna be really small cos of this i really cant find a free time to work i get really tired when i finish school or maybe during school i keep getting tired and i dunno how im gonna work like tht guess im gonna quit sooner tht the date that i planned too one thing i would really like to know is how to make my body react with what happen i know tht i myself needs to control my body but it is diffirent now i cant do it .. when im suppose to be angry, all i felt was tired when im suppose to be hurt , all i want is sleep what's this ?? oh noo my bod what happen sia dunno y i understand maths today , really i would have slept but dunno y im awake but i know im tired i dunno what im talking now .. ): p/s: finally eh say hii to me tought u just want to keep quiet .. i cant feel my body .... ); URGH!! back to top?