Cold Nostalgia

Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Saturday, February 27, 2010 @ 10:12 PM

first time spending my weekends at home. It a really bad idea cos it make me sick, food at home are awesomely uneatable and the boredom makes it worse . i seriouly dint went out during the weekends la except to buy my pen and marker ystrday. thats all.

living at home can make my life sucks like hell ! studied at home like a good girl do and thanks i dint remember a thing tht i learn. AWESOME !

soo my motivator to study has not been meeting me more than a week and is going to continue tht till next weedend. no choice but wait . actually need to take my dance outfit today but forget it la, who wants to go supandi's house and pick it up on a sunday? maybe im jus a lazy girl but totally worth the time entertaining ok . so i've been entertained by people on msn la, like muzaqkir and zul and many others good thing there's something called msn to keep me entertained.

3 MORE DAYS !! but u just told me tht u forget what it was . AWESOME!

Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 1:03 AM

today is a really short day for me.
i dunno y. usually thursdays are draggy especially in malay lit class . so unrelated to the lesson . soo today went home with sdfs and in the bus there's this girls who pushed me in the bus . walao , ass sia tht girl . when i turn to look at her she roll eyes at me . stupid or what push already dont know how to say sorry . give me the look as if i purposely stopped . then i keep looking at her . she stared at my name tag dunno y . then suddenly i saw her do something unglam , she hold her *toot* and act like no one see it . shameless creature . do tht in public for what . its not sexy mind you .
now at home doing nothing . i want to study maths but i skipped 2 days lesson already, difficult to catch up . just now got a text from an ♥. he text those like pass on messages about love and i wanted to txt back but i had no pass on messages so i created one . its a rhyming one

" people go jogging,

i go dating,

people watch tv

i go movie

people love car

i love andieka "

i know its lame but at least i tried and i sure get a1 for literature . hahaa .

yesterday skipped school . had head pain so i decided not to go . but i met an for my blood test . i was giggling when the nurse injected me . it just feel so ticklish to me laa .then went dance . this week i met an lots of time and im happy cos its once in awhile . otherwise he'll be in camp training . hmmmph hope the ns will be over soon . the happiest thing this week is i get to eat satay. at last and i ate it all alone la . yumyum .

Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 11:33 PM

everything changes in one day ,
its been the second time u disappoint me when u promise tht u wont
then u did what reminds me of that jerk , why?
is this valentine gonna be a good or a bad one?
why did u change jus so suddenly ?

Saturday, February 6, 2010 @ 12:32 AM

im really feeling tired now .
i dint do anything at home all day . went polyclinic for blood test but they say they cant do it today and i have to come bck on monday . darn it! waste my morning. went to re-new my bus concession with daddy and went home straight . i really had no plans for today . did my karangan naratif halfway and stop cos i dint have the mood to go on with it.
i've been in no mood these few days except for when im with sdf . i dunno y . moodswings is really making my life boring . cant watch tv , cant study (no mood) , dunno where to go out and can't text an . im rotting at home already . jus one day at home and im feeling like shit .

one thing im feeling strange about is my family . they're getting back again . but theres no difference in my eyes . i still see the third party in the family today so i dun see the point of them getting back together . this is all becoming to one cycle of a story . i want to tell her he just wont change and she's hurting herself more by accepting hym . but then they seem alryte . like there's nothing wrong. at 1 side i feel happy tht they are together but i really find it stupid . it's a mistake repeating itself. i know i cant hate hym cos like it or not he's my dad . i use to be able to get along with hym . now it jus feel different . i dont like being with hym anymore and i think i am being rude everytime he talks to me . i cant respect hym anymore. its not tht i cant forgive hym but i just dont like being woth hym anymore . he feels like a stranger to me .
mum told me off tht day for being rude to hym. she told me to say sorry but i jus dint . cos i couldnt . he is not what i respected hym to be . i cant pretend he is the person u thought he is cos i know tht he isnt . im sorry . one day , all this will be revealed sooner or later . i dont want to see u like the state u were last tyme but i cant tell u what i saw cos it will hurt u mre . ill just keep things to myself till the day comes. but i dont want to decide again cos i really cant come out with answer .

going to movies tomorrow with an dear.
miss hym lots cos its been 6 days not seein hym
hope we really go out tomorrow

Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 4:32 AM

A whole week of scoldings and stresses . Urgh!
For the whole week i keep missing the bus and have to run for buses . Soo buses are playing catching with me . Drivers are too afraid of me . Thursday was my stress of the stress day . Fisrt thing in the mornig i realise tht i lost my literature book , then my ruler went missing . Then i got scolded by mdm khong for not handing in yellow file . Then after school i went to buy shoe , was rushing cos i only have an hour to go and come back school . Soo i ran for the 187 bus tht i saw from far . the bus was pack like what. And then went posb to withdraw money and then forget to take the receipt and soo i walked there again and the receipt is gone . soo i went to the shop to buy my shoe and then went to bustop . soo guess what happen ? i had to run for the bus again but thos tyme the bus went off w/o me. DAMN IT! waste of energy . then during dance i was super stress cos i really had a bad day and i cant get my steps ryte.
i wanted to cry but i held back my tears cos i think im being dramatic . soo went home with a bus pack again this tyme i was soo regretful tht i took tht bus cos actually there's a long bus at the back . URGH!
today had cross country dint run . Hahaa. it was a PC couple run today we were like making fun of people we pass by and laughed alot sia . Dint get to drink 100 plus . the run was so uncomfortable with wet clothes soo me and sab kinda run-walk . what is intresting is thth when we say the first upper sec boy, we suddenly start running till the end. I went to the wrong lane cos the teacher thought i was a lower sec girl . haix.. teachers nowadays >.< .
then went to mac and cab to bpp with fariza, sab and afiq. journey there was super funny. hahaa. only us know then slack at mac. saw this bird with a thread on its leg. we wantd to help it but fail eventhough sab feed fries to eat, we cant catch it. then fariza went of followed by afiq.
left me and sab as always laa. we talk nonsense about the THT thingy . funniest sia cant stop playing with it . continued playing it till we went home . but he thing about 'a' is really funny .
thne now at home with grandma watching tv . but she is wiping the floor with tissue . hahaaa..
my fam went to body world w/o me . URGH! soo unfair . there's my father somemore. family gatherin w/o me nevermine ah . hmph this cant be accepted .
missing an but nvm he said im nonsense . my god! what is wrong with people im not nonsense im entertaining laa .

affiliates diyanah sabrina fariza afifah haiekal awwabin muzaqkir azimah khairunnisa mufiidah ahhbean naniee irfan iman ahamd afiq ardiyono zaki darsuni zulfiqar farid miramiramira
Saturday, February 27, 2010 @ 10:12 PM first time spending my weekends at home. It a really bad idea cos it make me sick, food at home are awesomely uneatable and the boredom makes it worse . i seriouly dint went out during the weekends la except to buy my pen and marker ystrday. thats all. living at home can make my life sucks like hell ! studied at home like a good girl do and thanks i dint remember a thing tht i learn. AWESOME ! soo my motivator to study has not been meeting me more than a week and is going to continue tht till next weedend. no choice but wait . actually need to take my dance outfit today but forget it la, who wants to go supandi's house and pick it up on a sunday? maybe im jus a lazy girl but totally worth the time entertaining ok . so i've been entertained by people on msn la, like muzaqkir and zul and many others good thing there's something called msn to keep me entertained. 3 MORE DAYS !! but u just told me tht u forget what it was . AWESOME! back to top?
Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 1:03 AM today is a really short day for me. i dunno y. usually thursdays are draggy especially in malay lit class . so unrelated to the lesson . soo today went home with sdfs and in the bus there's this girls who pushed me in the bus . walao , ass sia tht girl . when i turn to look at her she roll eyes at me . stupid or what push already dont know how to say sorry . give me the look as if i purposely stopped . then i keep looking at her . she stared at my name tag dunno y . then suddenly i saw her do something unglam , she hold her toot and act like no one see it . shameless creature . do tht in public for what . its not sexy mind you . now at home doing nothing . i want to study maths but i skipped 2 days lesson already, difficult to catch up . just now got a text from an ♥. he text those like pass on messages about love and i wanted to txt back but i had no pass on messages so i created one . its a rhyming one " people go jogging, i go dating, people watch tv i go movie people love car i love andieka " i know its lame but at least i tried and i sure get a1 for literature . hahaa . yesterday skipped school . had head pain so i decided not to go . but i met an for my blood test . i was giggling when the nurse injected me . it just feel so ticklish to me laa .then went dance . this week i met an lots of time and im happy cos its once in awhile . otherwise he'll be in camp training . hmmmph hope the ns will be over soon . the happiest thing this week is i get to eat satay. at last and i ate it all alone la . yumyum . back to top?
Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 11:33 PM everything changes in one day , its been the second time u disappoint me when u promise tht u wont then u did what reminds me of that jerk , why? is this valentine gonna be a good or a bad one? why did u change jus so suddenly ? back to top?
Saturday, February 6, 2010 @ 12:32 AM im really feeling tired now . i dint do anything at home all day . went polyclinic for blood test but they say they cant do it today and i have to come bck on monday . darn it! waste my morning. went to re-new my bus concession with daddy and went home straight . i really had no plans for today . did my karangan naratif halfway and stop cos i dint have the mood to go on with it. i've been in no mood these few days except for when im with sdf . i dunno y . moodswings is really making my life boring . cant watch tv , cant study (no mood) , dunno where to go out and can't text an . im rotting at home already . jus one day at home and im feeling like shit . one thing im feeling strange about is my family . they're getting back again . but theres no difference in my eyes . i still see the third party in the family today so i dun see the point of them getting back together . this is all becoming to one cycle of a story . i want to tell her he just wont change and she's hurting herself more by accepting hym . but then they seem alryte . like there's nothing wrong. at 1 side i feel happy tht they are together but i really find it stupid . it's a mistake repeating itself. i know i cant hate hym cos like it or not he's my dad . i use to be able to get along with hym . now it jus feel different . i dont like being with hym anymore and i think i am being rude everytime he talks to me . i cant respect hym anymore. its not tht i cant forgive hym but i just dont like being woth hym anymore . he feels like a stranger to me . mum told me off tht day for being rude to hym. she told me to say sorry but i jus dint . cos i couldnt . he is not what i respected hym to be . i cant pretend he is the person u thought he is cos i know tht he isnt . im sorry . one day , all this will be revealed sooner or later . i dont want to see u like the state u were last tyme but i cant tell u what i saw cos it will hurt u mre . ill just keep things to myself till the day comes. but i dont want to decide again cos i really cant come out with answer . going to movies tomorrow with an dear. miss hym lots cos its been 6 days not seein hym hope we really go out tomorrow back to top?
Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 4:32 AM A whole week of scoldings and stresses . Urgh! For the whole week i keep missing the bus and have to run for buses . Soo buses are playing catching with me . Drivers are too afraid of me . Thursday was my stress of the stress day . Fisrt thing in the mornig i realise tht i lost my literature book , then my ruler went missing . Then i got scolded by mdm khong for not handing in yellow file . Then after school i went to buy shoe , was rushing cos i only have an hour to go and come back school . Soo i ran for the 187 bus tht i saw from far . the bus was pack like what. And then went posb to withdraw money and then forget to take the receipt and soo i walked there again and the receipt is gone . soo i went to the shop to buy my shoe and then went to bustop . soo guess what happen ? i had to run for the bus again but thos tyme the bus went off w/o me. DAMN IT! waste of energy . then during dance i was super stress cos i really had a bad day and i cant get my steps ryte. i wanted to cry but i held back my tears cos i think im being dramatic . soo went home with a bus pack again this tyme i was soo regretful tht i took tht bus cos actually there's a long bus at the back . URGH! today had cross country dint run . Hahaa. it was a PC couple run today we were like making fun of people we pass by and laughed alot sia . Dint get to drink 100 plus . the run was so uncomfortable with wet clothes soo me and sab kinda run-walk . what is intresting is thth when we say the first upper sec boy, we suddenly start running till the end. I went to the wrong lane cos the teacher thought i was a lower sec girl . haix.. teachers nowadays >.< . then went to mac and cab to bpp with fariza, sab and afiq. journey there was super funny. hahaa. only us know then slack at mac. saw this bird with a thread on its leg. we wantd to help it but fail eventhough sab feed fries to eat, we cant catch it. then fariza went of followed by afiq. left me and sab as always laa. we talk nonsense about the THT thingy . funniest sia cant stop playing with it . continued playing it till we went home . but he thing about 'a' is really funny . thne now at home with grandma watching tv . but she is wiping the floor with tissue . hahaaa.. my fam went to body world w/o me . URGH! soo unfair . there's my father somemore. family gatherin w/o me nevermine ah . hmph this cant be accepted . missing an but nvm he said im nonsense . my god! what is wrong with people im not nonsense im entertaining laa . back to top?