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Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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im really feeling tired now .
i dint do anything at home all day . went polyclinic for blood test but they say they cant do it today and i have to come bck on monday . darn it! waste my morning. went to re-new my bus concession with daddy and went home straight . i really had no plans for today . did my karangan naratif halfway and stop cos i dint have the mood to go on with it.
i've been in no mood these few days except for when im with sdf . i dunno y . moodswings is really making my life boring . cant watch tv , cant study (no mood) , dunno where to go out and can't text an . im rotting at home already . jus one day at home and im feeling like shit .

one thing im feeling strange about is my family . they're getting back again . but theres no difference in my eyes . i still see the third party in the family today so i dun see the point of them getting back together . this is all becoming to one cycle of a story . i want to tell her he just wont change and she's hurting herself more by accepting hym . but then they seem alryte . like there's nothing wrong. at 1 side i feel happy tht they are together but i really find it stupid . it's a mistake repeating itself. i know i cant hate hym cos like it or not he's my dad . i use to be able to get along with hym . now it jus feel different . i dont like being with hym anymore and i think i am being rude everytime he talks to me . i cant respect hym anymore. its not tht i cant forgive hym but i just dont like being woth hym anymore . he feels like a stranger to me .
mum told me off tht day for being rude to hym. she told me to say sorry but i jus dint . cos i couldnt . he is not what i respected hym to be . i cant pretend he is the person u thought he is cos i know tht he isnt . im sorry . one day , all this will be revealed sooner or later . i dont want to see u like the state u were last tyme but i cant tell u what i saw cos it will hurt u mre . ill just keep things to myself till the day comes. but i dont want to decide again cos i really cant come out with answer .

going to movies tomorrow with an dear.
miss hym lots cos its been 6 days not seein hym
hope we really go out tomorrow back to top?