Cold Nostalgia

Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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Saturday, March 27, 2010 @ 6:29 AM

ysterdays sports day was great ! had lots of fun with the jumpshots and all .
eventhough panther got 2nd for the dance i feel tht we still did our best and tht

its good to still be in the top 3 . soo today went flea with sab and diyanah after bengkel.

bengkel was okay cept for the coldness . then met an and we did fight alot today

really and before we went home we fight more and then got back to laughing again .

but i know its gonna be alryte cos he is patient to me . im the stubborn one .

sab and dee laughed seeing us both .

anyway IRFAN and MUZAQKIR get well soon yo!

Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 12:53 AM

im baccckkk from sarawak . it was a nice trip . but there were misunderstandings fights and all . but love the nite times cos i had ample time laughing my heart out , gossiping and talking with my roommate, murni and the 'aku tak boleh' peoples . overall i enjoyed the stay there. the hotel tht we slept in was super big and very luxurious . got bath tub somemore . managed to call darling there cos i bought my a number there . wohooo!! bought little things cos i really duno what to buy . forgot to buy daddy's shirt and he came home wearing my bangles tht i bought and one of it snap off . thanks ehh daddy !! urgh ! dint manage to bought mny things cos the time given was short. really short and we were like having a race while shopping . running all over places to get things but still came up woth only a few . but the holiday was well spent . discovered alot from the members , good or bad . i dint have a picture wiht me cos i brought my camera but forget tht my battery was at home .. -.-

Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 3:26 AM

went out with an in the afternoon at bbdc cos he took his motor license . i was mad at hym for saying things tht hurts and then i walked off . frankly i was pissed . at the bustop , he went to kinda make it more hurtful but i jus ignored and walked off again. although i dint wan to do tht i jus want hym to stop saying things like tht . i jus want hym to let hym be quiet but no matter what i tell hym he dint so i though the best way was to walk off . he ask for us to be over . i was sad and feeling pissed with myself cos i just cant explain to him . but then 15 mins later we got back to meet at bukit gombak . haiyoh , soo he dint meant to call it over . i was happy tht we dint end our relationship. he dint brought up the fight again after tht although his hurtful words are still there. i was putting on my deaf ears so tht i will not feel like walking off again .
going sarawak soon and will be missing hym, my friends and dance . damn it , is it even a holiday?? but good thing i get to travel . i just cant wait to go but at the same tyme i will b missing an laa , we only have like 12 hours/week . how short is tht ?? i hope tht we could be seeing each other much often . (no need go ns laa an). ouh yah, an said he wants to go ite again after ns . i was like "-.-". when are u gonna start working then? u'll be 21 when u finish ns u know . then go ite , u will be 23 when ur done .. im ok with u studying but think about it u'll need to support ur mummy and urself also u know . how to do tht if u nt working?
i find things are getting expensive day by day . soo difficult to cope with my savings man . i miss working . how i wish i could do weel in o's and start working . hehee .

Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 4:27 AM

today had great fun. went out to meet an in the morning and today is the longest day tht we spend together . i was suprised to see hym cos he cut his hair . funny but ok la since he had to have it cut . i find hym getting chubbier day by day . isnt he suppose to get slimmer cos he's training at camp?? an your not training urself well ah ! wanted to watch movie but suddenly when we reach cathay cineleisure we dint want to watch any so yah , travelled tht far for nothing . . hehee . but then to not make our time wasted we had walk around town and he bought me the ripcurl pencil case i want . ahhh thank you . we did something stupid tht we repeated thrice today . we went to wisma and entered this door then we walked out from the door thts just opposite it . and this was repeated at ion and mrt station . we came in from this door and went out from the door thts just like next to it w/o knowing it . soo thn we laigh non-stop . then we went fareast and rounded the shopping centre up and down for more than 4 times . overall for today , we did lots of stupid things but enjoyed it like hell .
my results are worst but they are still manageable for me . im aiming for better results and wish tht i really get what i want .
i need motivation from people . mummy said if go ite also not bad . wah, bastard sia ! but good la at least i dun need to be afraid of failing . wohooo!

Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 4:28 AM

i had ample 2 days time with you. You jus did show me now tht im more different from the girls tht u were texting , im happy for tht eventhough i still do not like the idea of u texting other girls but since u let me do tht too i cant see y i need to forbid u anyway. These 2 days tht we spend together is like the best since the 1 month++ tht we have gone through . i know i was troublesome but i am happy tht u dont mind me being nonsensical, troublesome and annoying at times . u always said im alright for u eventhough i know i nag at u alot . but i am really thankful tht god gave us time to be together . it made me realised tht my perceptions for u are wrong but this doesnt give u the pass to be texting those people again ok . My time with u today was short but enjoyable . fancy getting tired for just a few hours of our journey to west coast plaza but all we did was eat . U realise not ? whats wrong with our body today . maybe the weather like what u say.

soo Alice in Wonderland was awesome cos most of the props were BLUE. there were blue rabbit, blue butterflies , blu dresses , blue skies , blue caterpillar and many more blue . Too bad green got removed most of the time . (SAB). find the story cute and hilarious at times . i just like how the place has a lot of colours . it looks like a fairytale land . i would be the happiest girl if that place ever exist here right before my eyes .

i realise tht not going to school for 3 days is absofuckingly awesome. Its the best lah but then it does not happen . damn it . i did my filing at home . thts so great la cos its the first time u could see me doing my schoolwork . im lazy to do my things this days . i dun like studying, doing homework and even going out . soo how lazy and i out of 10 ??

~i cant wait for this saturday . hearing ur plans for tht day makes me impatient . i really miss u and thanks for being my best ever companion .

Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 4:42 AM

today is a suckish day .
firstly becos i had pe and had to run 2.4 and eventually panchit on the way to finishing point . then i got a msg from an tht wasnt meant for me and he actually acknowledge tht person as baby and im like 'what the f**k'. but he told me thts its step sister . i was angry but yah im linient to hym i guess . but i tld hym i dint forgive hym.
then i had chem test which i dint really focus becos of the things tht happen and the tiredness i felt . then had dance , it was awesome la but i really am tired laa .

~im too angry/tired to say anything but i wish an knows tht i dun like hym calling anyone baby cos its like he's treating them the same as he treats me . its not fair . they are not ur gf and they get to be called baby . i dun wan them to feel tht u are making them special cos i want to be the only one .ryte im jealous but i tell u this which gf doesnt feel jealous ? if tht gf doesnt get jealous means u can jus dump her laa. im saying cos i still love u . pls dun try and test my patience cos i tell u this i really hate to be used . i dun wan to be used anymore by any guys . im not a doll tht u can play with la.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 4:07 AM

Im happy yet sad and tired at the same time .

1st thing today , i realised that it has been one month with andieka and i only realised tht like 2 hour before it reaches 12 midnite last night. u understand what im typing?? i think tht i myself cant understand it lah. But atleast i dint forget lah . hope he doesnt know tht it kinda slip of my mind . i was busy and stress with schoolwork and dance and everything. My mind dint get a rest at all so i tend to forget things. So i came up with this long 10 pages message for hym and wanted to send it to hym at 12 at the dot but i eventually slept . It was accidentally lah and i woke up at 4 in the morning and send it to hym feeling tht it wasnt auspicious anymore . but i guess its better tht i send it to hym than not cos if not then i have wasted 2 hours preparing the messages thinking of the ryte words . Hahaa fancy having to think too much for a message . my english really sucks laa .
2nd, i had not much tyme to do my maths test today and i feel really depressed cos i knew the answers and i feel so bad cos im gonna fail again. i studied tht hard but i still fail im really depressed man .. hmm the whole of the last page i left out which is like i lost more thn 10 marks jus like tht . the graph which is simple also i dint get to complete it . how bad it be .. i feel so depressed .

3rd i really am stress studying for chem but i think i could pass this one cos i understand it better. i pray hard tht i really pass for real cos it will be like the first test tht i pass since january. im doing really bad . urgh! help me someone . really im feeling tht the tension is super unmanageble. hmph..

4th im missing an terribly. been more than a week not seeing hym . im really looking forward for this saturday i really want to watch alice in wonderland with hym . its gonna be awesome . having not meeting hym and celebrating our 1 month alone is really sad but i guess this will be training for us both . I want to get new phone soon . An asked if iphone or itouch i better i should have told hym itouch la so tht i can get the iphone for myself but then i told hym already its iphone and he is buying it soon maybe . Urgh!! everyone i s buying what i want and its really unfair man . damn it .

~i want to watch alice in wonderland . the trailer is awesome la . An u better go with me or i gonna pinch u really badly .

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Saturday, March 27, 2010 @ 6:29 AM ysterdays sports day was great ! had lots of fun with the jumpshots and all . eventhough panther got 2nd for the dance i feel tht we still did our best and tht its good to still be in the top 3 . soo today went flea with sab and diyanah after bengkel. bengkel was okay cept for the coldness . then met an and we did fight alot today really and before we went home we fight more and then got back to laughing again . but i know its gonna be alryte cos he is patient to me . im the stubborn one . sab and dee laughed seeing us both . anyway IRFAN and MUZAQKIR get well soon yo! back to top?
Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 12:53 AM im baccckkk from sarawak . it was a nice trip . but there were misunderstandings fights and all . but love the nite times cos i had ample time laughing my heart out , gossiping and talking with my roommate, murni and the 'aku tak boleh' peoples . overall i enjoyed the stay there. the hotel tht we slept in was super big and very luxurious . got bath tub somemore . managed to call darling there cos i bought my a number there . wohooo!! bought little things cos i really duno what to buy . forgot to buy daddy's shirt and he came home wearing my bangles tht i bought and one of it snap off . thanks ehh daddy !! urgh ! dint manage to bought mny things cos the time given was short. really short and we were like having a race while shopping . running all over places to get things but still came up woth only a few . but the holiday was well spent . discovered alot from the members , good or bad . i dint have a picture wiht me cos i brought my camera but forget tht my battery was at home .. -.- back to top?
Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 3:26 AM went out with an in the afternoon at bbdc cos he took his motor license . i was mad at hym for saying things tht hurts and then i walked off . frankly i was pissed . at the bustop , he went to kinda make it more hurtful but i jus ignored and walked off again. although i dint wan to do tht i jus want hym to stop saying things like tht . i jus want hym to let hym be quiet but no matter what i tell hym he dint so i though the best way was to walk off . he ask for us to be over . i was sad and feeling pissed with myself cos i just cant explain to him . but then 15 mins later we got back to meet at bukit gombak . haiyoh , soo he dint meant to call it over . i was happy tht we dint end our relationship. he dint brought up the fight again after tht although his hurtful words are still there. i was putting on my deaf ears so tht i will not feel like walking off again . going sarawak soon and will be missing hym, my friends and dance . damn it , is it even a holiday?? but good thing i get to travel . i just cant wait to go but at the same tyme i will b missing an laa , we only have like 12 hours/week . how short is tht ?? i hope tht we could be seeing each other much often . (no need go ns laa an). ouh yah, an said he wants to go ite again after ns . i was like "-.-". when are u gonna start working then? u'll be 21 when u finish ns u know . then go ite , u will be 23 when ur done .. im ok with u studying but think about it u'll need to support ur mummy and urself also u know . how to do tht if u nt working? i find things are getting expensive day by day . soo difficult to cope with my savings man . i miss working . how i wish i could do weel in o's and start working . hehee . back to top?
Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 4:27 AM today had great fun. went out to meet an in the morning and today is the longest day tht we spend together . i was suprised to see hym cos he cut his hair . funny but ok la since he had to have it cut . i find hym getting chubbier day by day . isnt he suppose to get slimmer cos he's training at camp?? an your not training urself well ah ! wanted to watch movie but suddenly when we reach cathay cineleisure we dint want to watch any so yah , travelled tht far for nothing . . hehee . but then to not make our time wasted we had walk around town and he bought me the ripcurl pencil case i want . ahhh thank you . we did something stupid tht we repeated thrice today . we went to wisma and entered this door then we walked out from the door thts just opposite it . and this was repeated at ion and mrt station . we came in from this door and went out from the door thts just like next to it w/o knowing it . soo thn we laigh non-stop . then we went fareast and rounded the shopping centre up and down for more than 4 times . overall for today , we did lots of stupid things but enjoyed it like hell . my results are worst but they are still manageable for me . im aiming for better results and wish tht i really get what i want . i need motivation from people . mummy said if go ite also not bad . wah, bastard sia ! but good la at least i dun need to be afraid of failing . wohooo! back to top?
Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 4:28 AM i had ample 2 days time with you. You jus did show me now tht im more different from the girls tht u were texting , im happy for tht eventhough i still do not like the idea of u texting other girls but since u let me do tht too i cant see y i need to forbid u anyway. These 2 days tht we spend together is like the best since the 1 month++ tht we have gone through . i know i was troublesome but i am happy tht u dont mind me being nonsensical, troublesome and annoying at times . u always said im alright for u eventhough i know i nag at u alot . but i am really thankful tht god gave us time to be together . it made me realised tht my perceptions for u are wrong but this doesnt give u the pass to be texting those people again ok . My time with u today was short but enjoyable . fancy getting tired for just a few hours of our journey to west coast plaza but all we did was eat . U realise not ? whats wrong with our body today . maybe the weather like what u say. soo Alice in Wonderland was awesome cos most of the props were BLUE. there were blue rabbit, blue butterflies , blu dresses , blue skies , blue caterpillar and many more blue . Too bad green got removed most of the time . (SAB). find the story cute and hilarious at times . i just like how the place has a lot of colours . it looks like a fairytale land . i would be the happiest girl if that place ever exist here right before my eyes . i realise tht not going to school for 3 days is absofuckingly awesome. Its the best lah but then it does not happen . damn it . i did my filing at home . thts so great la cos its the first time u could see me doing my schoolwork . im lazy to do my things this days . i dun like studying, doing homework and even going out . soo how lazy and i out of 10 ?? ~i cant wait for this saturday . hearing ur plans for tht day makes me impatient . i really miss u and thanks for being my best ever companion . back to top?
Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 4:42 AM today is a suckish day . firstly becos i had pe and had to run 2.4 and eventually panchit on the way to finishing point . then i got a msg from an tht wasnt meant for me and he actually acknowledge tht person as baby and im like 'what the f**k'. but he told me thts its step sister . i was angry but yah im linient to hym i guess . but i tld hym i dint forgive hym. then i had chem test which i dint really focus becos of the things tht happen and the tiredness i felt . then had dance , it was awesome la but i really am tired laa . ~im too angry/tired to say anything but i wish an knows tht i dun like hym calling anyone baby cos its like he's treating them the same as he treats me . its not fair . they are not ur gf and they get to be called baby . i dun wan them to feel tht u are making them special cos i want to be the only one .ryte im jealous but i tell u this which gf doesnt feel jealous ? if tht gf doesnt get jealous means u can jus dump her laa. im saying cos i still love u . pls dun try and test my patience cos i tell u this i really hate to be used . i dun wan to be used anymore by any guys . im not a doll tht u can play with la. back to top?
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 4:07 AM Im happy yet sad and tired at the same time . 1st thing today , i realised that it has been one month with andieka and i only realised tht like 2 hour before it reaches 12 midnite last night. u understand what im typing?? i think tht i myself cant understand it lah. But atleast i dint forget lah . hope he doesnt know tht it kinda slip of my mind . i was busy and stress with schoolwork and dance and everything. My mind dint get a rest at all so i tend to forget things. So i came up with this long 10 pages message for hym and wanted to send it to hym at 12 at the dot but i eventually slept . It was accidentally lah and i woke up at 4 in the morning and send it to hym feeling tht it wasnt auspicious anymore . but i guess its better tht i send it to hym than not cos if not then i have wasted 2 hours preparing the messages thinking of the ryte words . Hahaa fancy having to think too much for a message . my english really sucks laa . 2nd, i had not much tyme to do my maths test today and i feel really depressed cos i knew the answers and i feel so bad cos im gonna fail again. i studied tht hard but i still fail im really depressed man .. hmm the whole of the last page i left out which is like i lost more thn 10 marks jus like tht . the graph which is simple also i dint get to complete it . how bad it be .. i feel so depressed . 3rd i really am stress studying for chem but i think i could pass this one cos i understand it better. i pray hard tht i really pass for real cos it will be like the first test tht i pass since january. im doing really bad . urgh! help me someone . really im feeling tht the tension is super unmanageble. hmph.. 4th im missing an terribly. been more than a week not seeing hym . im really looking forward for this saturday i really want to watch alice in wonderland with hym . its gonna be awesome . having not meeting hym and celebrating our 1 month alone is really sad but i guess this will be training for us both . I want to get new phone soon . An asked if iphone or itouch i better i should have told hym itouch la so tht i can get the iphone for myself but then i told hym already its iphone and he is buying it soon maybe . Urgh!! everyone i s buying what i want and its really unfair man . damn it . ~i want to watch alice in wonderland . the trailer is awesome la . An u better go with me or i gonna pinch u really badly . back to top?