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Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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day by day its getting really excruciating. im tired of us . yes us, ur attitude seriously is driving me mad . urgh! im fucked up today . really , pple jus love to hurt others feeling .hmmph, exams are coming and im feeling nothing. no stress no what , jus tired like a toot . had so much laugh today . i learnt nothing today except to cheer qixiang up by being ''ena mez'' . *sab*
awwww first time being so kind to qx . hahaha.
then went westmall with sdf and lyana . sdfs bought the same headband but of different colour. aww so cute . then homed .then met an .*sigh* but at least get to eat sushi . met dee with *insert name* we hugged when we see each other . cute lah tu mcm tk pernah jumpe gitu . hehehe.
then otw home alone , i saw my first love and i was awed by him laa. soo long never see hym but we kept quiet . trying to be oblivious to one another .
im damn tired , really and i really stink . i feet hurts cos my nails are too long. and i'm getting free airmax shoes. wohooo! back to top?

didnt went to school on friday cos i cant wake up at all. my body was weak since thursday nite which scare me + an eventhough his only encouragement was to ask me to try and stand up. and thts all thru msg laa. then went to study at mac arnd 4+ eventhough i dun feel good but it feels damn bored at home . then had tuition and went to mit an for like 30 mins and went home . i feel the time spend was pathetic . i mean really he dint even want to send me home la . and i went home alone like a lonely girl with no directions. then saturday was disasterous.
he is becoming more and more un controllable. he dont believe in me at all and accuse me alot . he is beginning to hurt me more and really i dunno wats gotten into hym . im tired of all this and feel like giving up thts wat ive been telling hym . hey change can you?
met sdf ystrdy and felt happen cos friday dint get to met them . love korang. you all make me smile . (: ily all ! back to top?

sorry for not updating for a real long time .
days have been fill with sorrows and sufferings. thankfully there's my dearest friends , andieka and especially my nenek and abang firdaus whose always there to help me .
i have a new number now if those who text me realise tht i dont reply thts becos i've a new number. i realise tht life is really soo unfair and theres nothing we could do to change tht. we just have to live with it . which is killing us bit by bit .
had a really disasterous 2 weeks or was it 3 ?? i dunno but it really wasnt pleasant .
i am really greatful tht i have a granma who cares from me and supports me ryte from the start . fi realise tht ive neglect her alot and now tht i know, i never fail to give her a kiss when i go out. i love her like my own mum. i mean she has been my mum all along since child and there is no doubt tht nenek will always be my mother no matter what . i pray really hard tht she would be ok after her operation which is coming soon . and for abng fir, i realy hope the best for your court case hopefully its not the worst tht we could hear. although i dint tell u ths but i want u to know tht i love u so much . and i know tht we would be brohters and sisters forever like how nenek and atok took care of us the last time . i remember those times when u , me nenek and atok went out together. it feels more like a family thn, not like now , all of us have gone different ways. thanks for caring for me ans savong me each time when i need u . i've always acknowledge u as my brother since child and it would never change i promise .
ill just have to live like this till im old enough to live on my one with nenek and abng again. i miss atok, the love he gave me and how he put me at the top of his other cucu's . i really miss hym i have a picture of hym in my room and he just look like how i remembered him to be . i jus miss the life and family tht i used to be with . they are just too wonderful . there's love all along. ):
and for an thanks for being patient, i know we can do it . yeah! we are gonna prove to the world tht we can be together . i know im stubborn , like what u said but whatever it is i still love u .
for sdf thank u for being wiht me all along . back to top?

i've been sick for the week .
monday, went ot schoola and manage to go through the day but thn skipped tutorial cos i was sick.tuesday, went school and went back after assembly, midway of ss. wednesday, had a 3 days mc but came school eventually . thursday, went school and did my test wish was a no hope test .
tystrday went sab's house for movie marathon and it was fun. had many webcam pictures and it was the day tht i sat like a monkey all day . i feel so ugly . hahaa ! today went jp and bck home at 3+. planned to go jurong bird park with brother but we dint know where it was and it was raining so the plan was cancelled . family is going johor tmrw , but i may not be going cos i want to meet an!!! yay!! hopefully he dont call it of . its been like a long time not meeting him. back to top?