Just woke up from sleep, i've got no other things so i decided post. I dont have any latest updates or anything. Im just posting cos i feel like it.Hee. Seriously saying i'm not in the mood now. Had tarian a.k.a talking session with cikgu azmi cos we were tired and many of us did not want to practice. Ended around 4.30. Called amithabachin for almost 6 times before he answered. I dont know what he did that each time i call him he would never answer. He told me that he was at clementi and it would take time to come to bukit batok. So i was pissed, he already confirmed that we are buying shoes today but then end up? Maybe its my fault for telling you that i will end at 5.30 but i didnt say that i will reallyreally end tarian at 5.30. Told you to wait me at school so its easier you dont want. That i understand. I dont mind if you dont want wait for me. But please la, i dont like people who seriously confirmed with me and suddenly decided to change day. You make me put high hopes for nothing. So then i talk to him otp for awhile, scoldingscoldingscolding and he was making jokes. I know you're a funny person but sometimes i need you to be serious too. He likes to hang uo so much and i just cant take it la. I feel like crying and i told him. He did nothing. Eventhough i hung up on him, he just dont react. Why is it that i must tell you to do things for me? I dont want that. I want you to react by yourself. I didnt ask you to be romantic, its just when someone cries, what do you think she needs? I dont want to keep telling you that i feel sad and that im crying. You could hear my shaking voice right? Urgh! I dont want to change you thats why i dont really care about what you're lacking. I dont want you to change i just want you to realise. Thats all i need.
Then after scolding and talking, waited for him in hope that he would come then called him up again and he said he reached home already. I was already freaking pissed off by then. So i played with the rain. Walking from dunearn's bustop to the one before it so that i can cool myself off and broke down on my way. I'm not angry that you went home. I know i asked you too but then if you really love me would you really leave me waiting? That was when i started to regret things. I feel that things are different now. Its our first time fighting like this. I seriously dont want to buy the shoe with you anymore. I prefer doing things myself now that i know its soo difficult for us to buy things together. It alright im already used to it. Ive done things alone in my life. Its not that i dont need you but think for yourself, do i need to tell you that i need you? I want you to react by yourself and not do things cos i ask you too. I went home and was feeling pissed and regretful. Haish.
Slept all the way till 8.30. Wah, shiok! I seriously didnt get enough sleep since last three days, ( i hope you do know bout that) cos ive been working night shift. I feel like buying a baju raya but its late already i think, Hmph nevermine, still got tomorrow. Hee. SHIT! I just realise that i have tuition today. Bagus, tk datang lagi ehk. Aaah, sorry hureen, aku terlupe yang aku ada baca message kau. Sorrysorry.
I saw felicia chin on tv with her vitagen advertisement and i feel like drinking vitagen. Ahhh, its freaking nice if i can get the apple vitagen. Alamak, wanted to go down but its already 9, kedai apek da tutup. ):

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PS: I dont mind you not being romantic but i want you to see that if you dont realise about things around whats happening to us, its going to be difficult for us to get along like we used to. I want you to know that im not trying to break off its just that i want you to think for a while. Is this really worth what i waited for? I want us to be happy yah, but how when you are serious at times. Iloveyou. But now, i regret for doing things. Its not that i regret having you, i appreciate it alot. I really do thats why i keep wanting you to be with me. Sayang, i dont mind you not comforting me just be here with me will you? Like you promise you would. Im trying to be strong for all this. Will you be here for me lie on you agin?