watched 500 days of summer with sab and diyanah at orchard cineleisure. wanted to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs- 3D but tk jadi lag. two times tk jadi. ): how i really want to see it. but the movie that we watched were touching. the girl reminds me of you. at that point i really wish things could get back to where it is. but i accepted it. love does not always end with 'happily ever after' right. well maybe not for you but me.

send mum to her checkup today. then after waiting for her, we were finding the kopitiam but end up going round the hospital. me eat nasi goreng pataya and yong tau foo. mum was jus looking and then we talked about the secrets betwn her and my dad. now i know why dad hasnt been in touch with the family anymore. i was disappointed with dad. i duno wether i shld hate or jus be right what i used to feel. but its difficult. as much as mum dun want to share. the same goes for me. now i have to sacrifice and follow you for the sake of the family. now i know why it all ends up to me. cos im the most nearest to dad and i believe dad so much. now, i dunno. i cant share with bro cos mum say not to cos she's afraid its goona affect his 'o' level. so it all lies to me again to follow you. but them im goona be separated from mum and also bro and nenek and abang. i dunno if i could do it. well i jus need time.

i dunno why my happiness does not last long. when i fall, i fall really badly. i've lost my boyfriend and now maybe my family or maybe jus dad. i really hope dad changes not for us ur children but mum too. now that i know the whole story, its hard for me to get along with it without the other siblings knowing it.

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