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Im Siti Sulaiha Bte Kamsani.Turning a year older every 21st december. Im nonsensical, noisy, but not adorably entertaining What makes my life awesome is the great life tht shapes me i lurvee ANDIEKA ♥, my AWESOME SDFS and PC gangmates. life's more better if u colour it with blue and fill it with chocolates AWESOMELY INCREDIBLE !

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it is really hard for me to get you off my mind
okay, i've accepted this
actually im not thinking that much
like the previous days
but to see you makes me happy
but the fact that i cant touch or be near you
really makes me miss you
i dont wish to be ignored
nor do i want to ignore you...

jus got back from seoul garden. really bloated. i went straight to the toilet as soon as i got home. today, it wasnt that great a day. failed bio which means loss the com science, then com humanities also no hope. maths really out of chances. but i passed my literature. thats good but it brings me no where if i didnt pass english... i really want to promote. really want to.
if only i could change time, i wouldnt have gone out that night before chemistry. argh..):
today, people keep giving me shocking news. really shocking ones. i dunno what to say, i dunno if i should believe. i dunno if i should ignore either. i know it hurts to just ignore. but i dunno what to do.
after malay dance, went home to change. nab and kak murni followed me home. nab bath at my house. wah... then talked alot about life and love and family. really, lots to talk.
and i want to tell afifah, cheer up babe. there is always someone waiting there for you. eventhough im not close to you but i know what it feels like. hee...
tmrw going vivo with family. at last have a family outing. a request fulfilled by both parents. its been long since we go out as a family, miss those moments. but i feels hurtful to know that the family is soon to be gone. i cant make my mind. i want to make mum happy but it feels hard to live with dad. can i live alone? easy kan decision dia.
ahhh.... tired, stressed, depressed, hurt.... everuthing except happy...
i want my family and my life back...
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